Doreen Kristabelle

i've MOVED!

2010-07-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

i've moved!

2010-07-29T01:49:00.012+08:00

我好想哭，但，哭不出来。
我对我生边的所有一切都麻木了。
什么是人生？！我再也不想知道，不想了解了。

i felt so numb towards everything..
我的要求有那么难吗？！
你要的，我都做到了。我想要的，你有进全力做到吗？！

朋友，损友，男朋友，差别在哪里？！
男朋友，损友，朋友，算什么？！
一些寂寞才须要你的代替品？！
痛苦，是心中感到疼痛而带着苦涩滋味的简称。。。

whole day at home, guai kia!

2010-07-25T03:51:00.010+08:00

took photo with mummy! :DD
nothing much to post about today..
bomb-ed people again, as usual =/
stayed at home whole day, till 7plus, cousins came..
when down to coffeeshop, mummy ordered seafood steamboat for us, only 3 of us eating!
damn damn full after that larh!

i spent 3hours editing this blog of mine, great success! *i like*
helped kylie to edit her blog too..
chatted abit with amandy, suprised by what she told me~
my day, today was pretty nice ^^
except for some people, intruding into my life..

to someone:
FYI, i'm not anyone in your life now..
you aren't anyone in my life too, so, stop bothering me!
you lead yours, i lead mine, i don't need you anymore in my life..
FUCK OFF KAYPOH~
i don't need someone who makes me cry but didn't bother to wipe my tears off..
i don't need such people to come and say things which bothers me..
i'm not refering to those 2 that gave me a sense-knocking session..
i'm grateful about your concern, but, you don't have the right to say me..
everyone has the right to try knocking some sense into me, but, not you... ...

shall end my post right here, it's so early now..
and adrian just woke up and chatted with me -.-
i told him that i'm sleeping soon, he say don't need sleep, WTH~
anyways, TATA! i'm sleeping now ^^

RANDOM

2010-07-23T04:49:00.004+08:00

I've Neglected My Blogspot For LONG!!!

mixed feelings i have..
to many things happening in one go..
probably, maybe, i should think wisely..
*think WISELY don't mean think OLP, LOL*

i've alot of things to post about..
but, i don't know what to post when i started typing -.-

this few days, i'm lazy to go out, why is that so?!
i've bomb-ed quite a number of people ^^

don't know why, that jerk just suddenly came into my mind..
he's just like a soul, that haunts me wherever i go..
i seriously thought he was nothing to me,
but, it seems like, i'm kinda wrong eh?!
the best memories i had with, is not 8.96647364 anymore..
in fact, i miss and recall about 8.586543 more... ...
why, why, why?!

people asked me a question, which i can never answer..
why do i keep falling for TAN guys?!
everyone realized that, and, i was like, huh?!
i didn't know that 8.586543 and 8.5464664 surnames are TAN..
until the day we got together then i know!
it wasn't what i plotted -.-
i eventually told someone, maybe, i'm fated to be MRS. TAN?! =x
alright, forget it, it's all in the past~

took a personality quiz of myself,
the answers came out effing true larh! =/
it's posted in my facebook's info ^^

2010-06-29T16:06:00.003+08:00

this post is dedicated to TAN JUN JIE!

AWESOME!
THIS IS WHAT I GET FROM YOU?!
despite me trusting you so much..
you had a girl behind my back?!
and, you've been together for 2 months plus!
i was in the dark all along... ...
how dare you!
claims that you're my boyfriend and having her?!
how dare you cheat on me?!
this is what i get when i give you the freedom you yearned so much?!
this is what i get when i always don't quarrel with you, keep quiet?!
this is what i get when you said that you love me, i'm your girl?!
you disappointed me too much..
you hurt me too deep!
you said you'll never hurt me, but this is what i get back..

everyone around me can sense something wrong,
only me, stupid me!
sense nothing!
believe all your craps and rubbish!
so all girls you're with, all you brought home larh?!
all of us shared the same bed sleeping beside you?!
HOW WONDERFUL DO YOU FEEL?!
you claimed that your ex hurt you by cheating on you,
and this is what you do to me when you sweared that you won't!
WHAT A FUCKER ARE YOU!

i ain't the only girl getting hurt and being lied..
have you ever thought of with if both of us found out?!
you made her the third party unknowingly!
what a disgrace to human species~
you hate that hurt feeling, but... ...
LET ME TELL YOU, I DID NOTHING WRONG TO DESERVE THIS!
I DID NOTHING WRONG TO HAVE YOU MISUSING MY TRUST!
I DID NOTHING WRONG TO HAVE YOU CHEATING ME BEHIND MY BACK!
SERIOUSLY, YOU SUCKED BEING SOMEONE'S BOYFRIEND!

at first eveything was so nice and sweet..
after six months, this is what i get from you!
well, whatever i say can't change the fact..
LAST LONG WITH YOUR AMANDY!
IF SHE FINDS OUT THAT YOU'RE HURTING HER TOO,
I DOUBT SHE'LL FORGIVE YOU EITHER..

i miss junjie )):

2010-06-24T06:53:00.002+08:00

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2010-03-23T02:18:00.004+08:00

I LOVE PIGGY TAN! *opps*

i've got alot alot alot to post about,
don't even know where to start with..
i've got loads and loads of photos to upload,
but, i'm too lazy to do so -.-

alright, anyone that miss me,
you can easily find me in jurong point ((:
i LOVE my manager, she's only 22 years old!
my whole outlet except for aunty, all 25 and below!
they are all friendly, not as nasty as i thought..
and, they love to joke about!
- i've got a complain today by a fucking old hag!
luckily my manager understands and she consoles me ((;
- i did a grave yet hilarous mistake!
i removed the mask of the customer guess what?!
her eyelash extension falls out! OMFG!
luckily, no complain, but i told manager about it >.<

no more school for me, i'm still wondering..
should i proceed on to higher Nitec or not?!
PIGGY says i should, PEOPLE says i should not..
haiz, anyways, it's too early to decide, next year's plan!

my house has another family member since 5 weeks ago!
baby is so so so damn cute larh! i love it ((:

i met a guy whom melted my heart the moment i saw him..
i never believed in love-at-first-sight, until i saw him..

i wondered why, why is it him among all guys,
after getting to know him better, i know..
he's caring, sweet, thoughtful and understanding..
how manys guys are like that?! i doubt all..

he scolds me when i skip my meals,
he forces me to drink plenty of water,
he nags at me when i sleep late at nights,
he sends sweet meassges all day to brighten up my day,
he calls me everynight just for the sake of calling even if we just hold on to the phone!

i've never met a guy who understands me so well,
i bet he knows what am i thinking,
i bet he feels how i feel right now..

he knows i'll worry if he go MIA, he will reply me a "sorry"..
he knows exactly what am i going to do even if i never say..
he knows that i'm not happy even just only through the phone..
he knows what to do when i'm bored, he will be my "kai xin guo"..
he always messages/calls me whenever i just when to pick up my phone,
his timing is always so accurate, this shows he knows when i miss him ((;

i think i can never afford to lose him, not even once..
i don't even bare to quarrel with him, even when i'm unhappy with his doings..
i used to have thoughts of ignoring him because he did not message me the whole afternoon, but, once i saw his message being recieved, i replied automatically!
no matter how unhappy i am with him, he always managed to make me hang off the phone with a smile on my face, wishing me a sweetdreams followed by a goodnight kiss..
this is the only guy i ever falled for so deeply, incomparable..

my room is filled up with 586543 this six digits..
my heart and mind is filled up with his name, his voice, his face..
PIGGY, i never ever said ILOVEYOU to you before..
i shall say it here instead, ILOVEYOU PIGGY!

2010-02-09T01:35:00.004+08:00

seriously, i've got nothing to say,
but to say, I MISS 586543 LOADS LOADS!

one thing to say is, sorry PIGGY!
i lied, i said i'll sleep at 1am, but...
SORRY LARH! i know you'll forgive me ((:
all i need to do is... ...
baby, please, mwarks! you sure say OKAY~
hmm, till now, i've yet to say ILY to you yeah?!
slowly wait bahs, i love you, but, i know can lerh >.<

i kinda miss quite alot of people today,
especially PIGGY!
you always say you want baobao..
now my turn to say, I WANT BAOBAO (^-^*)

how i wish i can see you every now and then i like,
how i wish you're here to hug me to sleep every night,
how i wish i can finally say what you wish to hear,
how i wish i can control myself from being greedy... ...

i'm greedy because,
i can't sleep without you calling me,
i keep staring at my phone while waiting for your reply,
every morning first thing i do is message you,
every tuesday, i'll wait for your morning call..

i can never be used without you now,
urging me to eat my meals on time,
asking me to drink more water,
nagging me to sleep early,
scolding me for being late to work or school..

whenever 9pm reach, i'm not on the phone,
my family will sure have someone asking,
how come you never call me, quarrel arh?!
i will laugh, cause so far, we never quarreled ((:
you sure will call me every night... ...

i'm so used to,
nagging at you for smoking too much,
punishing you for swearing vulgarities,
disturbing you while you're sleeping,
scolding you for not drinking enough water..

you're the second guy in my life,
i ever messaged immediately once i woke up..
be honoured yeah?!

i just don't understand,
why do i find you cute from the first sight?!
when did i start missing you day and night even if we chatted?!
when did i happen to feel uneasy without you messaging me?!
when did i start to wait for your call every night before i sleep?!
BABY, i might just can't live without you now ._.

you're the first guy, i reported what am i doing everytime..
you must be feeling so so honoured arh?!

i've never believe in "love-in-first-sight",
now, i believe, because i experienced it ((:
we've known each other for 1706 hours,
been together for 26053 minutes ((:
i swear, i love you more than anything else..
i'm surprised about my own feelings too..
i'm even more surprise that _ _ _ _ _ ((:

BABY, i trust you, i need you, i want you and
I LOVE YOU!!!

2010-01-29T03:34:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY, SWEET SWEET SWEET ((;

daddy, mummy fetch me to school today ((:
but got nagged or rather 'scolded' by mummy in car-.- nevermind!

cause my PIGGY came to school find me>.<
PIGGY, got fever!
serve you right for getting caught in the rain xP
PIGGY, you know what?!
just now in class, the rain so heavy,
i so worry you sitting outside will feel very cold..
cause you really feel very hot when i touch your forehead..
luckily, you never faint ._.

ms eng talked to me today and yesterday, kinda relieved ((:
she saw PIGGY outside our class, she give me a -.- face! HAHAHA~
luckily, no scolding, only say :
cannot everytime let your boyfriend come inside school arh! LOL!

after school, walk till busstop liao, lirong called me!
asking me to help her take OF to club 10 for bridging activity-.-
zhanyang is always disturbing me, making me laugh, whenever i take his class..

my poor poor PIGGY, pei me walked up and down so much ):
still help me carry my bag leh ((: *mwarks*
sorry for not eating the whole day, i know you won't scold me ders (;

peisan! i told my PIGGY that you wanna know his friend ((: me and my PIGGY is going to be your matchmaker liao>.<

PIGGY! i miss hugging you, i miss seeing you liao... ...

2010-01-25T15:32:00.002+08:00

I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!

to you, you, you and you!
read here!
say whatever you wanna say about me!
I DON"T GIVE A DAMN!
it just simply shows that you guys are :
0% mature, 0% trust-worthed,
100% childish, 100% not worth trusting,
100% whole mind thinking full of SEX!
let's see, now, who is more cheap?!
sleeping with my guy, called cheap?!
you don't even know whether are we together,
yet crowning me for a cheap and slut slogan?!
only people who are cheap thinks of SEX all the time!
FYI, sleeping together DON'T MEAN sex!
quoting me as a slut, saying me cheap?!
SO WHAT IF I REALLY AM?!
EVEN IF I AM, YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO SAY!
SO, FUCKING KEEP YOUR MOUTH TO YOURSELF!
you guys keep saying that i've changed, but,
i never change at all!
from the very beginning, i am
always giving attitude,
always never give in during quarrels,
always position my guy in the first place rather than friends!
what's wrong?! i dare say!
BOYFRIEND IS MORE IMPORTANT FOR ME!
don't like?! leave me alone then!
i don't need any of your commentations on me~
FUCKING CHILDISH BUNCH OF CRAP!
i don't need anyone to confront me, and i won't do anything about it..
HATE ME?! DISLIKE ME?! FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE THEN!
i will never change my attitude for anyone -.-
i'm not going to do anything about my attitude..
feel like slapping me?!
TOO BAD, YOU CAN'T!

2009-12-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

I WANTED HIM!

you're clever if you know who i want ((:
how i wish i can see him sleep-.-
nevermind, i'm satisfied now ((:

last decision, "U" ((:
i only want him,
no more "B" or "S" in my life ((:
i just want him..
but, maybe, he won't know~
haiz, i'm not courageous enough..
kristabelle jiayous!
one day, "U" will be mine and only((:

i swear, i've fallen for him~

2009-11-02T13:39:00.002+08:00

I MISS MY HONEY ALOT! never expect myself to fall for you-.-

shall update only about this 2-3 days..
start from saturday bahs..
morning woke up without someone's message ):
almost one whole week without him..
messaged him that he never care about me,
surprised! i recieve his call from hongkong ((:
when i'm working, he called,
i'm damn damn happy larhs!!!
jocelyn physco-ed me to sign treatment package,
costed me $480 for 10 treatments!
nevermind, i can go my outlet as a customer ((:
after work, when to buy birthday cake,
it's welynn's 19th birthday..
after that, took cab home with my manager!
recieved tons of messages from him, him & him..
except for my baby honey )):

sunday, went to work early!
bought curry puff and breaded sushi,
for my breakfast, YUMMY!
followed jocelyn eat mini wok noodle,
grace see us eat, she went to buy it ass well..
HAHAHAHA!
went upstairs to shop in ntuc for awhile,
me, as usual, buy strawberry yoghurt drink ((:
left the whole carton in pantry, everyone can drink!
sharon treat me 1 box of strawberry pocky,
jocelyn treat me 1 breadtalk bread... ...
after work, i felt damn damn stress!
because, my manager brought me to amk,
meet white sand's outlet's manager to eat!!!
3 of us ordered alot of food and can't finish-.-
crab beehoon, salted egg pork ribs, dou miao and dong fen!
cost $81.20 for the meal~
white sand's manager was pearlyn,
from her, i knew that manju was under her..
chatted alot with 2 "da ren wu"... ...
cabbed home with ada, my manager..
chatted with my bridegroom and my sotong..
both of them ask me to sleep early!!!
off to sleep, good girl lehs (:

today, i am happy too!
bridegroom morning message me,
honey messaged me, he's back in singapore!
and 2 of my bitches messaged me ((:
later, gonna spam my sotong's phone!
message sotong and honey, will be damn sweet for me ((:

to someone, maybe you know who are you ((:
seriously, even though i said i missed you dearly,
i don't expect myself to fall for you so soon..
but, whenever i didn't recieve your message, i felt lost..
when you called/messaged me, i can smile the whole day..
especially when you're here, no matter,
you are working or sleeping, you will make the effort,
to ask me what time is school for the next day,
i sure get your sweet morning call ((:
i miss those days, those weeks, those calls..
the name honey in my call log is disappearing ):
because you are always not in singapore!
i'm grateful that once i messaged to complain,
saying that you don't wan tme anymore,
you actually called me straight away xP
i love you honey, i've fallen for you... ... ...

2009-10-19T14:37:00.002+08:00

I'M TIRED AND SHAGGED AT THE SAME TIME )):

saturday was fun fun fun!
but i'm tired-.-
plus i'm sunburnt badly!!!
stupid mosquitoes bite me too )):

yesterday when to work at city square outlet..
my colleages are all damn friendly..
i'm damn tired because 1st day of work,
i'm already working on customers ((:

woke up with a damn sweet message awaiting..
it shows :
baby honey i'm back. love love miss miss ((:
jealous eh?! i've got so sweet message by my honey!
woohoo! he's back in singapore ((:

2009-10-16T19:51:00.003+08:00

NO LONGER FREE ON WEEKENDS -.-

first week of school, laptop spoil-.-
one week, five dys of school..
i met that fucking burger 4 times!
only know how to gossip..
you fatty pig, you're nothing compared to me!
bare this in mind,
i'm just fucking suay bumping you~

i miss my honey!!!
faster 22nd octorber please!!!
i want my honey back in singapore ((:

today went to AMES to collect my uniform..
shall upload photos when i can..
chatted with someone who once own my heart..
kinda feel weird but, i'm contended ((:

tomorrow early in the morning 8.30am,
have to go for my leadership training..
sunday going report for work at 11am,
at farrer park,
hopefully i won't get lost..

eversince school start,
i'm no longer free!!!
monday - friday school..
thrusday night, go promotion beauty products..
friday afternoon, stay back for real work..
saturday and sunday working time from 11am - 9pm-.-
kristabelle jingwen is a busy lady~

so, guys, wanna meet me, find me?!
inform me 1 week in advance from now on ((:

2009-10-06T17:05:00.003+08:00

woohoo! i'm a staff of new york skin solutions!

sophie from AMES called me just now,
asking me to start work next week,
meaning?!
i'll have more income!!!

school's starting soon!
sadded, my GPA is only 3 points!
i've got B for everything -.-
FUCK IT!

next friday, gonna be the 1st time,
i can't go for realwork,
because, i have to rush down to IMM!
why?!
go to AMES to collect my uniform -.-

i'm happy and nervous at the same time, LOL!

one sickening thing happened!
i'm down with rashes as well as my brother -.-
and, lotions are just as useless,
doesn't stop the itchiness at all!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK )):

lost my ez-link card,
need go for replacement soon!!!
i'm like so suay yea?!

spent my days at jurong~
i'm been staying at my cousin's house,
from saturday till now,
tomorrow is go home day! LOL!

i'm messaging my honey the whole day?!
muahahaha, someone lost something xP

i found out that, there's actually,
alot of guys caring for me, more than him!
so, fucking ass kick him off my life ((:
although, i love, but, i hate it too~
no point sticking to a guy who never cherish!

i'm going for my own life,
finding my love, my MR. right,
living up to my own standard,
i need him no more, NO MORE!!!

all i need is my sisters, my cousins..
promised someone not to go clubbing often..
promised someone not to take ____ pictures..
promised someone that i will miss him..
and, i did!
i really miss you baby ((:

2009-10-04T15:16:00.005+08:00

I'M MISSING YOU~

snapped mingsiang while he's busying forming his girlfriend's name ((:

LOVES!

JINGWEN, PEIYU - cousin's forever!

2 babies praying together, cute leh!

cam-whored with huiyee after playing downstairs~

actually i had nothing much to post about..

well well, yesterday for me was so-so..
not counted as gathering as i planned..
forgot to cam-whore with those peepos! )):

doubting about somethings going on in me..
should i or should i not?!
i'm just being crazy yea?!
after so long, one big round,
i'm stuck back leaving my heart with one person~

school's starting soon!!!!!
real soon~

i'm sorry

2009-09-26T05:13:00.007+08:00

I AM NOT SORRY!

I'M NOT SORRY,

REALLY NOT SORRY!

i don't know that things will turn out to be this way..
i will not apologise for what i did..
i shouldn't had told xing fong all those things..
i understand that you felt betrayed..
i'm not a good friend, not to say a sister..
you entrusted me so much, yet i told him everything..
but, fyi, i did not said about you directly!
maybe what i did was unforgivable for you,
but, i meant to helped in the very first place..

thanks for breaking off friendship with me,
because now than i found out,
we aren't really sisters yea?!

maybe, in the very first place,
i shouldn't had told him that we're sisters..
so, he won't asked me about you..
and i won't said everything out so easily..
wanna blame, put all the blame in me..
i could only say one thing,
I'M NOT SORRY!

i'm not sorry for what i did..
BUT,
i'll always remember the days we had together..
the overnight at our houses, sleeping together..
i'll remember the days we cried and laughed together..
how we lied so as to not let our mummys scold us..
i'll remember the days we hang out together..
remember that how we find places to hide just to _____..
i'll remember every single thing that we did together..
things we shared and you said to me..
your messages will always be kept in my phone..

i don't yearn for your forgivness,
i know, just realise,
once again, i'm not sorry... ...

2009-09-21T20:29:00.008+08:00

I SHALL UPDATE THIS BLOG TODAY!

promised to many peeps to update, yet, i never )):
sorry my peeps!
i promise to update often ((;

do not comment on my photos!
be it negative or positive commentations~

i've been deeply "hurted" by someone yea?!
even though i cried all night till 6am,
there's jonathan ( bridegroom ) comforting me..
yepps! and my beloved katrina & katherine ((:
they accompanied me chatted in phone for hours!
but, there's one ~~crapper~~, wongxingfong!
chatting with katherine & xingfong made me finally LAUGHS~

this few days, my handphone's inbox is full!
all the name i can see is GABRIEL ( honey ) ~
he's really a lazy pig, hahaha!
but, i think me too!
actually he message me halfway, MIA..
now, my turn!
i sleep till 4pm & he kept complaining *opps

chatted with
daniel ( baby ) ,
joseph ( papa ) ,
kenny ( dardar ) ,
hockmeng ( dear ) ,
naas ( korkor )
&
mingsiang ( korkor )
in msn just now ((:
messaged with my honey the whole day~
i miss all of them loads loads yea?!

to hockmeng & naas,
take cares in army alrights?!

one kuku named TAYMINGSIANG happen to be my korkor,
so so long never online, once online only,
he comment negatively on me so many things,
still keep laughing?!
i keep demanding him that he never update his blog..
yet, i go read he update already,
no wonder he nag at me yea?!
LOL! i miss my this korkor xp

i will update more on my wretch ((:

2009-09-03T02:34:00.001+08:00

to someone :
do you think i'll leave you alone?!
bare to see you go for other girls?!
what you're not favoured by anyone?!
if i don't care, i won't say... ...
when you said about finding other girls,
i wanted to say, no!
just because i want you to be mine... ...
but, i refrained myself from doing so,
i'm afraid of you asking me to give up,
because i know i can't... ...
i rather let you think that i'm petty,
rather than being hurt further more..
just like i said, i'll wait,
no matter how long... ...
i'll tolerate, no matter how you treat me..
till now, i never keep back my words!
you know how much you stand in my heart..
don't find other girls if you can, please..
but if you really want, go ahead..
i'll wish you whole-heartedly,best wishes..
seeing you staying happy is always better,
alot better then seeing you bring grumpy..
like you said before, i ain't fit to be your's?!
even though, i'll still be standing behind you,
watching over you, not letting you fall once more..
when you're sick, you're down, you need someone,
i'm always availiable for you, no change... ...
i wanted to go up your house eversince last friday,
but, i scared of you showing me attitude,
i hate crying infront of you!
till now, i only remember your good, not your bad..
so, whichever day, suddenly you need me back, i'm ready!
i simply just can't live on without your news..
ignore me, swear at me, all you want,
i'm strong enough to tolerate all these... ...
maybe last life i owe you, this life it's time to pay..
as i said, i love you forever, i meant it~

2009-09-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

power! i managed to memorise the whole HFC training notes!!!
except for the nails diseases & disorders, the rest, woohoo~
leave that for monday morning's last revision... ...
tomorrow shall start revising FTY already,
that's alot more than i could store in my brain ):
nevermind! after next wednesday, i'm free from school till october ((:

handed up 3 nebo forms together to ms eng,
and handed her $45, with all photos attached ((:
sisters, i think i can get in in october only..
because, next week after my exams, are holidays for me!

managed to answer all questions,
by ms eng & ms tan CORRECTLY!!!
my therapist was jingjing today,
don't know why everytime i paired with her,
both of us sure laugh non-stop throughout,
and become the class noisiest pair!

no realwork this & next friday,
as i requested, ms goh agreed!
she asked my to contact the rest,
to come back on 18th september'09..
happy, happy, happy... ...
ms goh promoted me to work hands on customers!

2009-08-30T02:54:00.005+08:00

FUCK!
I'M SO FUCKING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW!
EVER SINCE FRIDAY, 28TH AUGUST' 09, 11:50AM,
I'VE BEEN ASKING YOU THE SAME QUESTION OVER AND OVER AGAIN..
YET?!
WHAT I GET IN RETURN?!
YOU, BEATING AROUND THE BUSH, HIDING THE FACT!
DON'T I HAVE THE RIGHT TO ASK?!
DON'T I HAVE THE RIGHT TO CONCERN?!
WHY IS IT THAT PEOPLE AROUND TENDS TO KNOW MORE?!
I ASK YOU, YOU DON'T WANNA SAY..
KEEP SHOWING ME THIS FACE [ =p ]!
FUCK YOU LARH! KNNBPCB... ...
I'M SO DAMN FUCKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW!
TELL ME THE TRUTH OR NOT, UP TO YOU..
THIS IS THE SECOND TIME I CONCERNED,
END UP GETTING NOTHING BACK IN RETURN,
BUT JUST ANGER AND DISAPPOINTMENT!
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU ACTUALLY MEANT TO ME?!
THINK IT IN ANOTHER WAY,
IF I'M THE ONE INJURED OR SAD,
WOULD YOU BE WORRIED SICK FOR ME?!
PLEASE FUCKING STEP INTO MY SHOES,
THINK OF HOW WILL I FEEL!!!
FANCY HIDING SO MUCH FROM ME?!

CONCERNING FOR YOU IS MY FAULT!
BUT, I JUST CAN'THELP IT,
BUT TO CONTINUE THIS FUCKING MISTAKE... ...
INTENDED TO SLEEP, END UP, I CRIED!
ALL THANKS TO YOU!!!!!!
THE ONE AND ONLY GUY I CRIED FOR,
IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE 16 YEARS~
BEING THE FIRST AND ONLY GUY I WOULD CRIED FOR,
I DOUBT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW..
MANAGED NOT TO VENT MY ANGER ON YOU,
SO POST IT OUT INSTEAD... ...
YOU, YES YOU!
FUCKING BASTARD!
I CAN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..
HOW I WISH I'M NOW BY YOUR SIDE,
SO I CAN FORCE YOU TO SAY,
HOW ON EARTH DO YOU INJURED YOURSELF!!!
I'M SO FUCKING WORRIED, BUT, I CAN DO NOTHING )):

2009-07-30T04:19:00.000+08:00

WE'RE LESS THAN LOVERS BUT MORE THAN JUST CLOSE FRIENDS?! I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH (:

don't know what's wrong with blogger,
can't change font, colors or even view what i typed!
i'm now typing blindly in the space~
hopefully nothing goes wrong!!!

went to school today, was like, FINALLY?!
i know,
i've disappointed ms janie eng, ms berlyn tan
&
my parents ):

almost ruined my own future in my own hands!
i've got SELECTED for scholarship!
i've been RECOMMENDED for worldskills!
but, but, but,
all my chances almost been taken away,
just because of my attendance this few days..
SORRY TEACHERS FOR DISAPPOINTING YOU~
as i've promised, i'll be back a good student,
no more skipping lessons,
no more being stepped down by gossips (:
i hereby thanks all teachers that recommended me~
also thanks for giving me a second chance (:
i truely appreciate it very very much (:

to 2 of my bitches,
i've read your blogs,
there's a brighter world ahead!
i know it's difficult, but,
i'm also trying like you bitches tried (:

kind of surprised when i saw your tag..
also surprised when mingsiang suddenly talk to me in msn!
why is there so many people asking the same thing?!
i shall answer it over here,
I MIGHT BE GOING, 80% POSITIVE, ALRIGHT?!

people that i've promised,
after o levels prelim papers,
we shall meet up and go eat big feast!
provided, it's not during my exam period (:
kbox/partyworld, sakae/steamboat/dianxiaoer!!!
you guys better vote when the day is near!
i've got 2 votes from my dearest korkor, dianxiaoer..
i think my bitches mostly will choose singing sessions..
as for 2 more "unknown" guys, you shall vote on that day,
providing you guys are going (:
should i ask him, him and her along?!
clue : MR. AEOING, MR. AOENGG & michelle... ...

mummy and daddy asked me why i play traunt,
never scold, never nag, just talked nicely!
because i think, they know i've got problems ):
they found out that i'm smoking too, no scoldings!
just ask me whether can i try to quit,
or, wait till i'm 18 years old, than smoke... ...
where to find such good and kind-hearted parents?!

sometimes, i just wonder,
why am i still hanging on though?!
i know, it's not good, but, i can't..
life without aoengg, is, fucking miserable?!
sort of, feeling uneasy without him actually!

2009-07-27T02:46:00.009+08:00

I SERIOUSLY MISS YOU ALOT MORE THAN I COULD IMAGINE~

monday, wednesday & thrusday, i did not attend school!
all thanks to H1N1, just because i'm sick!
i've got so many days mc~
not sure why do i feel like vomiting every now and then... ...
this feeling sucks, okay!

tuesday went to school, but, went home during lunch time..
same problem, i'm feeling too sick to stay in school..
whole week, i'm staying at taman jurong~
imagine from taman jurong to college east!!!

friday, went to school,
miss berlyn tan said that i catch up with the class real fast!
it's an compliment alright!!! ((:
stayed back for real work..
had lunch with jingjing, angeline & kawen XP

coming thrusday will be my next phase test!!!
good luck to myself then~
time really flies,
september will be my big big exam period ):
no more sickness or school skipping for me!
because, i've missed 27 hours of lessons in just one week!!!

although i'm sick, but, i did not stay at home (:

monday, meet katherine & katrina..
asked yongwen to go home early, as, i'm going up..
planned to go library study with the 2 bitches,
but, too bad, i've delayed the time,
so, all of us went home for dinner ((:
to someone, i don't care what you think,
as long as i know what am i thinking... ...
ignore me?! neglect me?!
let's see how long can this time last... ...

tuesday night, went to krisandra's house,
kathrine came after me, planned to study,
but, instead, we gossip, joked & played make-ups!!!

wednesday & thrusday, stayed in,
because, i'm lazy to go out~

friday, saw something, i shouldn't see ):
well, as long as those culprits thinks it's fine,
and aren't even a least bit of guiltyness,
i shan't blow up this fucking matter with FUCKERS/SLUTS..
went up to katherine house, then, walked up to my block..
wanted to go eat, but not hungry, so, went back katherine house again!
after that we bought panadols and went up to my block again,
stay till 9+ pm, then we went down to s11..
both of us amazingly planned to eat the same thing!!!
we loitered around the community centre, at the same time,
hiding away from coaches, because someone skipped her training~
slowly walk to green park play swing... ...
2 fucking bangalahs are sitting behind the playground,
then we keep making fun of the to bangalahs~
i think, it should be the 1st time katherine saw,
most crazy side of me, she was laughing all the way..
well, katherine's stunts are alot more than mine!!!
we scared 2 bangalahs on the way back,
how sweet, katherine sent me back home at 12am sharp (:

saturday, went jurong point to shop... ...
as for today, i'm back home, i miss my bed & "puppys"!!!

my inbox is flooded!!!
krisandra, katherine, katrina, peiyu, darren,
jingsheng, daniel, justin, yongwen, jasiman, naas, aaron & shidah!!!

i know all you guys missed me damn alot!
i'm planning when to meet up, in order not to clash anyone's time..
hopefully i've got 100% responds from all of you (:
strictly no bombing, or i'll smack you whenever i see you!
no excuses either, because, you guys asked me to organised!!!

oh ya, one more very very delayed meeting!!!
sorry yangfan, i'll made up again next time!
i promise alright?!
HAHAHA~

2009-07-20T03:24:00.003+08:00

JAMIE KATRINA- LAST MINUTE BOMBER!!!

Kristabelle, Krisandra & Katherine (:
SISTERS & BITCHES FOR LIFE~

went to celebrate amanda's birthday..
after eating the birthday cake,
me, krisandra & katherine went down to void deck..
smoke halfway, good luck to us!!!
police came, and guess what?!
I AM STILL UNDERAGE!!!!!
luckily katherine good girl, didn't even puff~
hopefully no letter issued from HSC to me ):
yes, that pack of ciggerate is also mine!

ate at ENAQ's pratahouse,
same as before, mushroom prata!!!
guess what?! we forgot to pay the bill~
after eating, we just walk off!!!
POWER RIGHT?!

went to swing swing swing ((:
yes, my skirt flew up too (^_^*)
but, swinging was fun fun fun!!!

katherine, i'm staying at taman jurong later!!!
can come find me at night ((:

short post,
due to,
it is LATE now~

2009-07-15T21:11:00.005+08:00

I MISS MR. AOENGG ALOT, BUT, I'M HELPLESS~

even though it has been the past,
but, i'm still here for you (:
don't think lowly of youself,
just remember to take good care of yourself..
kindly gain back your confidence, alright?!

NOBODY

You Know I Still Love You Baby
And It Will Never Change

I Want Nobody Nobody But You
I Want Nobody Nobody But You
How Can I Be With Another?!
I Don't Want Any Other
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody

Why Are You Trying To,
To Make Me Leave You?!
I Know What Are You Thinking,
Baby Why Aren't You Listening?!
How Can I Just, Just Love Someone Else And
Forget You Completely When I Know You Still Love Me
Telling Me You're Not Good Enough
My Life With You Is Just Too Tough
You Know It's Not Right,
So Just Stop And Come Back Boy
How Can This Be When We're Meant To Be

I Want Nobody Nobody But You
I Want Nobody Nobody But You
How Can I Be With Another?!
I Don't Want Any Other
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody

I Want Nobody Nobody But You
I Want Nobody Nobody But You
How Can I Be With Another?!
I Don't Want Any Other
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody

Why Can't We Just, Just Be Like This 'Cause
It's You That I Need And Nothing Else Until The End
Who Else Can Ever Make Me Feel The Way
I Feel When I'm With You, No One Will Ever Do
Telling Me You're Not Good Enough
My Life With You Is Just Too Tough
You Know Me Enough
So You Know What I Need Boy
Right Next To You Is Where I Need To Be

I Want Nobody Nobody But You
I Want Nobody Nobody But You
How Can I Be With Another?!
I Don't Want Any Other
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody

I Want Nobody Nobody But You
I Want Nobody Nobody But You
How Can I Be With Another?!
I Don't Want Any Other
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody

I Don't Want Nobody Body
I Don't Want Nobody Body
Honey You Know It's You That I Want
It's You That I Need,
Why Can't You See?!

I Want Nobody Nobody But You
I Want Nobody Nobody But You
How Can I Be With Another?!
I Don't Want Any Other
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody

I Want Nobody Nobody But You
I Want Nobody Nobody But You
How Can I Be With Another?!
I Don't Want Any Other
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody

Back To The Days When We Were So Young And Wild And Free
Nothing Else Matters Other Than You And Me
So Tell Me Why Can't It Be?!
Please Let Me Live My Life My Way,
Why Do You Push Me Away?!
I Want Nobody Nobody Nobody Nobody, But You!

2009-07-12T22:59:00.007+08:00

KRISANDRA, KATRINA, KATHERINE, READ HERE!!!!!

thanks for being there with me whenever i need you girls (:
through secondary school days till now, never changed..
especially katrina, you've been with me the longest and the most..
i love you bitches the most, best friend forever yeah?!
we've gone through thick and thin together, cried and laughed together..
we never failed to console each other when we're down... ...
but, i wonder why,
we seems to fall for guys at the same time,
and giving up hopes on guys at the same time..
is that what we called?! best sisters for life?!
from now on, we can drink, smoke, dance, flirt all we want!
all of us regained singlehood at the same time, such coincidence (:

guys are not meant for us to love and dote,
but, for us to play, flirt and have companion (:
unless that particular guy really dotes us ~
well, let's not talk about guys right now!
we shall talk about outing, playing, clubbing!
singing sessions, swimming sessions, sun-tanning sessions,
all coming up soon, buck up for your exams,
i'll treat you girls a big big feast, alright?!

let's use all the burgers in the world,
to feed all the dogs all over the world (:
bitches don't need dogs, bitches need hot guys!
babes, are we all ready for that session?!
i hope so, our birthdays are coming up,
so, enjoy, have fun and die of laughters (:

we're strong, always strong, right?!
this time, none of us cried for them... ...
all we do is, curse, swear and kick~
remember, no more shedding of tears for them!
we only cry and smile for each other,
our feelings are united, always and forever (:

krisandra! i've re-linked you, don't nag me anymore!
HAHAHA~

2009-07-11T18:05:00.011+08:00

FEELING HURT AND BLUSHING AT THE SAME TIME.. I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU!

sometimes, i really think far too much..
every relationship have their limits,
limit for a honeymoon period... ...
it's always 3 months to 1 year,
and, it stops afterwards... ...
only way to maintain, is,
tolerance and patience towards your guy..
but, how many people really understand?!
is this "theory" so diffiult?!
there's always a want and don't want..
there's never such thing as,
sick and tired of being in relationships..
there's only endurance or breakoff..
no time for each other, means?!
keeping secrets and feelings faded?!
BULLSHIT alright!
no time, doesn't meant NO love!!!
after a quarrel, no contact, means?!
don't concern or can lead without you?!
ANOTHER BULLSHIT alright!
no contact, doesn't mean don't concern!!!
it just shows that,
either one party don't know,
how to apologise to the other party... ...
or, both party are waiting for each other calls,
but, none of the party gave in to call first..

as for me, i just don't understand..
why do i like guys who look extremely cute,
but i love guys who look hot yet adorable,
especially those with untidy handwriting,
yet, he's still number one in class~
why, why, why?!

i've already lose one chance,
on getting that hot guy to be mine,
i don't want to lose the second chance again!
so, MR. AOENGG, are you willing to give me,
my second chance for not losing my hot guy?!

p/s
just realise that, why is it so coincidence?!
i've added alvin chew wen ping in facebook..
lost contact after so long, now, thanks to facebook!
he's still as naughty as 6 years ago... ...
typed for me his phone number in don't know what form,
asking me to figure out the number myself... ...
when i've figured out, i typed and ask him,
he actually asked me to deleted, later go spy~
chatted in msn from 9pm till now, we're still chatting!
even turn back time to how his sister used to tease me (:

found out that guys i had feelings for have the same taste!
both looks around the same, loves honda civic... ...
tops in class, have untidy handwritings, loves using o.O... ...
jamie katrina, stop teasing me alright?!
one is my 1st crush another is my 1st love... ...
you've got one newly nick name by me & alvin,
which is "jiawen the friend"... ...
HAHAHA~

went for fruits dinner buffet just now,
my dinner was just fruits, healthy!!!
while having my dinner,
yongwen keep messaging to ask me faster go home..
then can chat in msn and play games together... ...

2009-07-10T22:29:00.008+08:00

AMES was so damn nice, but, interview was quite stressful~ ( we clipped up our fringes!!! )

me, gerline and crystal at the rear of MS ENG's car (:
teachers drove us from school to IMM..
me & gerline slept in MS ENG's car... ...

today's interview was held at IMM (:
altogether, there are 6 people,
being shortlisted for the final interview..

yun nam hair care
2 senior hair fashion girls..
not sure from which class..
both named jolene ( not sure about spelling )!

london weight management & new york skin care
4 beauty therapy girls..
UB0901F - manju
UB0904M - me, gerline & crystal

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS JUDITH CHNG!!!
our head section, MS JUDITH CHNG
my class advisor, MS JANIE ENG
beauty teacher, MS VICKY TAY
sat there listened to how we present ourselves..
seriously, all 3 teachers are real JOKERS!!!
i laughed non-stop all the way... ...

IMM was the headquater for all 3 groups..
we were interviewed by 5 heads of the company..
LADY BOSS, MD & 3 representatives from each group..
was abit tensed, but, overall was fantastic!
our interview was totally just like,
company meeting with a tea-session!
their doughnuts and tarts are delicious!
MS CHNG keep saying that she want more~
out of all students, i'm the only drinking coffee!
MS ENG was quite surprised that i'm a caffine addict like her!
HAHAHA~

loads of "secrets" revealed during interview,
most of us are being brought up in a single-parent hood..
sad to say, but, all our 3 teacher are shocked,
by our life stories and experience... ...
maybe all 6 of us will be selected or only some..

scholarship provides us with :
- school course fees
- $400 allowance monthly ( exclude IA )
- $1000 salary monthly ( during IA )
- advanced training in company

i'm surprised that the company actually encourages workers,
by giving generous checks, overseas air-ticket or LV bags!!!

TO some particular aunties ( gossiper ) :
recently found out quite a number of things..
am i a hypocrite or people around me are the hypocrites?!
seriously, i can't stand people poking their nose into my affairs..
think whatever you people like, i don't give a damn..
i am who i am, don't you people fucking understand?!
spread whatever rumours you brainless kids want!
cheap, slutty, bitchy, dirty?!
fuck those irritating rumours spreaders..
let me find out who's the one started spreading all around,
i shall truely skin you alive and not giving you any pride!
i curse you being dumped by your most beloved,
or rather, being raped when you're out in the middle of night..
i shall laugh all i want when i see you dying!
by then, i shall see who will suffer more~
just for those words you people spread around,
i'm able to sue you people for offending elseone privacy,
spreading rumours that ruin others life leading..
so, pray hard that i won't be able to find you out!

2009-07-10T00:44:00.003+08:00

INTERVIEW AT IMM LATER ON AT 3.30PM~ SCHOLARSHIP ARE TROUBLESOME!

today's lesson started at 1pm,
but, i reached school at 1pm sharp..
so, i'm 5 minutes late for class!

lesson was so-so,
as, it was sort of physic lesson!
learning about electric current..
shall go retrive my physic file,
back home to study for good... ...

LLA was so-so too,
got my certificate (:

whole day messaging people like,
audrey, katrina, darren and yongwen!
alfie & co. met me to go home togather..

jingjing and alfie & co. said the same thing,
all asked why am i so quiet this few days..
am i too quiet?!
which do you prefer?!
hyper-active or hypo-active?!

supposingly meeting darren and yongwen,
for pepper lunch tomorrow afternoon,
but, i've got interview, too bad~
shall change the dates again then!

everyone around me, knows... ...
do YOU know that i miss YOU alot?!
well, i'm fuck crapping here... ...
bother or not, up to YOU!

thinking of how to tell mummy tan,
when i will to see her on _ _th of july'09 ):

how sweet of darren and yongwen,
just because of me requesting,
they really went to create facebook!!!
i love you boys loads loads (:

if only you were here... ...
i seriously felt that i'm alone,
even though i know i'm not at all..
sometimes i felt that no one is there for me,
but, there is, just that i neglected... ...
sorry guys for making you worried throughout!

LAZY TO UPLOAD PHOTOS TODAY~

2009-07-09T02:26:00.004+08:00

I MISS TAN YONGSENG ):

alright,
shall post all delayed photos,
TOMORROW!!!

photos with katrina, darren & yongwen..
with amanda, zhonghan, zhongxian, zhongde & enzo..
miss uploading loads and loads of photos (:

messaged with michelle, katrina, darren & yongwen..
talked damn alot of things with them... ...
it makes me realise that,
people that seems to be closest to you,
doesn't mean that you know him very well..
for instance, me and yongwen found out that,
we aren't facing the yongseng we used to know..
you should understand what we meant... ...

changing a person from good to bad,
isn't a difficult task at all..
BUT
changing a person from bad to good,
takes up alot of time and patience..
we're all ready to give all our patience to you,
will you give up your 'precious' time for us?!

this few days, what luck am i having?!
keep on bumping into the people i knew,
saw jasiman around college east,
saw hamka in the mass rapid train,
saw peiyu on the way to jurong east,
saw alot alot of similar faces around!
i miss one particular face the most... ...

to jasiman :
i'll try to go back alright?!

to junxiong, yizong :
i won't be emo-ing around, cheerful always, okay?!

to michelle, weizhi, peiying & audrey :
meet-up soon!
but, most probably is around august or september,
because we're all preparing for exams & projects~

to darren & yongwen :
i'm still the sister you guys knew (:

updates, updates, updates..
will post photos tomorrow,
also type more about things~

night night peeps,
don't nag at me anymore!!!

2009-07-06T01:08:00.002+08:00

Courses

Professional Make-up Artistry Diploma

Photographic, Bridal, Fashion Makeup & Hairstyling Diploma Bridal & Fashion Makeup Artistry Course

Stage & Drama Makeup Course

Personal Makeup Course

Special Effects Makeup Course

Personal Makeup and Hairstyling Course

Makeup Specialist Advance Diploma

Course Outline

Graduate with the right diploma, Singapore’s most popular training course for aspiring make-up artists.
Full training on all vital areas of make-up empowering you to create a wide spectrum of make-ups.
The Professional Make-up Artistry Diploma is designed for those who wish to pursue a career as a Professional Make-up Artist.
The course is conducted through five essential modules.
Students will also learn hairstyling techniques in order to complete the look.
At the end of the course, the school will assist the student in compiling a professional portfolio of your make-up work.
Your make-ups will be captured by a professional photographer.
You will also have opportunities to work on actual theatre productions during the course.

Course Duration

43 Lessons

Course Fee

S$3424.00

Pre-Requisite

Prospective student must be above 15 years old and able to speak English.

Course Structure

Bridal & Fashion Make-up Module
18 lessons
Hairstyling Module
06 lessons
Stage & Drama Make-up Module
08 lessons
Body Art Module
02 lessons
Special Effects Make-up Module
06 lessons
Photography Portfolio
02 lessons
Theory & Practical Examination
01 lesson

Course Syllabus
Course Introduction

Types of Cosmetics / Tools of The Trade

Highlighting Shading Contouring Techniques

Camouflage Make-up

Bridal Day, Evening, Photographic Make-up

Vital techniques in each type of Bridal Make-up

Working with Waterproof Make-up

Fashion Make-up Techniques: Shine/Matt/Glitter etc

Introduction to fashion cosmetics: working with fluid foundation etc

Eyebrow Tweezing / ShapingFashion Make-up Through The Century: 1940s, 1960s, 1970s, 1980s, etc

Character Make-ups : Clown, Opera, Tramp, Horror etc

Animal Face Painting

Body Art

Introduction to Special Effects Materials

Creating Casualty Effects: Bruises, Burns, Scars etc

Perspiration, Wrinkled Skin effects

Changing Facial Features, Modelling works, nose and chin

Making Effects: Bullet Holes, Wounds, Gangrene Leg etc

Complete a Total Special Effects Makeup Look

Working with Crepe HairBeards & Moustaches

Stubble Effect

Latex Effects, Bald Cap

Complete a total Tramp Look

Hairstyling: Blow Drying, Setting, General Styling, Hair Sculpturing, Bunning, Dressing up a Loose Curls Look, French Roll, French Pleat etc

Portfolio Preparation: Design & Create a variety of make-ups covered in the course for photography, including hair and costumes

2009-07-06T00:34:00.003+08:00

will update all the photos,
when i'm able to upload it to my blog (:

overall i had fun externally for the whole holiday,
but not internally having fun and enjoying ):
because my life is without tan yongseng all this while~
just one thing to say, i miss you dearly!!!
don't be angry anymore alright?!
sorry for being so wildful in the phone ):
forgive me?!
even if your answer is no, nevermind!
i had already prepared for the worst (:
just bare in mind, not to regret... ...

something came into me this morning,
something regarding about baby... ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DESENDED BABY,
if only you're here, things won't be this way..
sad to say, but, i'll always remember you!
let's wish that someone on the other side of singapore,
remembers you as dearly as me too... ...

now, currently, awaiting,
for a newborn baby to come out,
estimated to be a march baby (:
if someone really cares,
he/she will sure ask about this matter..
to peiying, weizhi & audrey,
do not say out what am i refering to!!!

baby, i miss you~
i miss my dearest bastard!
am i just someone whom is fated,
to be tarnished by MR.AOENGG~

2009-07-02T14:07:00.005+08:00

I'M JUST FATED TO BE TARNISHED IN YOUR HANDS...

a relationship without trust,
is just like a sweet without taste..
i admit, i don't know what am i doing..
insecureness surrounded,
everything i knew was the last,
if you're the last to know about me,
how would you feel and think?!

it has been more than a week,
i'm living through,
without your lovely messages,
without your sweet calls,
without your everything!

i managed not to detail my thoughts,
not to tell any of my bitches how i felt..
thanks to you,
i've learnt how to stand up alone..
without you, without my bitches guiding me..
although it was tough... ...

you knew how much i wanted you,
you knew how much i need you,
but, you never know how much i loved you..
isn't it saddening?!
a guy being with me for years don't know ):

thanks to daniel and aloysius,
for cheering up my mood,
without knowing why am i moody (:

2009-06-17T14:14:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 31ST MONTHSARY!!!

15th june'09

went to class chalet, bbq,
but, i'm there doing nothing..
seriously, i did not eat anything..
because, just don't feel like interacting~

at night, went to find my precious..
went to THE ARENA, crazy, but,
i'm ~~SAD~~, because,
my bitches are not there!
i didn't have fun ):
only MR. TAY MINGSIANG have 100% fun... ...
as for the rest, i don't know?!
thanks to WISELY ONG (:(:(:

after THE ARENA,
waited for 1st train instead of cab..
sit by the singapore river, talk cock..

16th june'09

reached my bastard's house,
at 7.20am, bathe then sleep..
but, the time is still not enough,
i still want hugging to sleep!!!
nevermind, there'll still have chance..

accompanied my bastard to taman jurong cc,
then i headed to my auntie house..
overall i'm having fun & laughter (:(:(:

17th june'09

which is today, right now,
i'm so so fucking happy!
because, it's my day (:
me & bastard tan's 31st monthsary..
woohoo~
5 more months, me & bastard tan,
3 years down the relationship..
i'm counting down... ...
baby, want me to give you surprise?!
HAHAHA~

2009-06-11T01:07:00.005+08:00

I TRULY LOVE BASTARD TAN YONG SENG!!!

i almost cried today,
but, my lovely bitch is by me..

today's FTY test is quite easy (:
but, after comparing,
i found out that,
i've got 3 questions wrong!
nevermind, at least, i will pass (:

lunchtime was touture for me,
_ _ _ _ _ _ - _ _ _ - _ _ _ _ _ _ read here,
i seriously felt like puking,
just because i saw you sitting,
right infront of my table!
fucking fat ass, wish you disappear soon..
because, with you around,
i'll forever have phobia eating,
as, i'll sure be vomiting~
if you dare curse me, swear at me or stare at me,
do it right infront of me,
i'll at least give you some respect,
respect which faggots earn to spit on..
you know why?!
just only one reason,
i see you, i not happy!
not happy with me?!
just say, don't need bark behind my back..
seriously, named you so much,
which do you prefer most?!
SLUT, DOG, FAGGOT, BIG ASS OR _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ?!
no matter how hard you try to cover,
your fats will always show out, no matter what!
whatever clothings you wear, still the same..
luckily, i'm not approved by,
daddy & mummy to go to LAOS,
or else, i 100% will get "babi" flu~
i pity my classmates sharing the same flight as you!
be honoured that i polluted my blog,
because of you this fat ass again!

thanks bitch,
i was shocked about what you sent him..
but, i didn't know that he did talked to me,
in msn, when i reached home then i found out (:
seriously, your words are cruel!
good job babe, i love you!
see you on 15th of june (:
i miss you bitch!

to my bastard,
who say i never cared for you?!
want me slap you or not?!
is you never care for me okay!
whatever it is, i still love you (:
mwarks, mwarks~

如果我說　愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什麼還怕什麼
快牽起我的手

2009-06-09T22:15:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY BASTARD TAN!!!

don't you even know that i'm sick?!
everyone is concerning my health,
except you, never ask, never concern..
do you know how much i miss you?!
i'm sure you know, just that you didn't show!

today went to school, LATE!!!
EFC lesson, i bet i missed alot..
FTY lesson, due to did not attend school yesterday,
i missed out all the important points for test tomorrow..
1st time, missed lessons, missed school..

today's FTY practical,
my therapist is lisabelle again!
i love her loads, okays!
because, she've got so much patience,
but, i'm a nasty customer,
keep touching my mask,
i bet, my wrinkles are coming out ):

i know you guys knew what exactly happened,
all worrying for me now, right?!
thanks for all your concerns,
be it, asking me to take care,
or knows everything and counselling me (:
i appreciate it alot, love you people!

but, what i want, is not your companion,
i want his companion, his love, his care ):
i'll never defeat in this game, never lose!
all i can afford, is to win & get what i want,
it is highly impossible for me to lose this game..
NO WAY!!!

people, don't nag at me,
for eating curry & chilli during lunch..
if you guys really love me,
meet me on monday, 15th of june'09,
go THE ARENA happy whole night with me,
i'll love you guys so so much,
especially LIANG WEI ZHI!!!

to normal friends,
do not message or call me for no reason..
to my bitches & only bastard,
i'm waiting for your calls, your messages (:
KOH JIAWEN FUCKING MISS TAN YONGSENG!!!

2009-06-08T08:08:00.004+08:00

MAY I KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, WHY THIS TURNED OUT TO BE THIS WAY?!

wanted so much for you to accompany me,
you rejected, don't even want to reply my message..
now, just because i want you to take the initative,
message or call me first instead, what you did?!
putting the blame in me,
telling me that i'm drifting away from you?!
in the first place,
if i don't love you, why i patched up?!
if i don't love you, why i tolerate so much?!
will all my efforts be gone?!
after so long, so tough,
you managed to win my heart,
but, you also managed to tarnish my pride..
do you know that?!
what ever you did in the past, i don't say,
i believe, i'm the most idiotic girl in this world..
trust you, believe you, love you,
all i can do, i shown..
i tried my very best,
not to show how much i scared,
can't you see?! are you blind?!

dragon dance training, no time for me,
i tolerated, nv complain, because you're tired..
after competition, i asked you to accompany me,
you said you're tired, don't want to wait,
i admit, i felt disappointted at that moment,
but, in the first place,
why don't you tell me that you're not feeling well?!
bought food for you, you don't even bothered to look at me,
let me get out of your room, your house, crying alone..

i'm used to pamperings, used to it..
your sudden change made me felt distanced..
whenever i throw temper, give attitude,
you'll always soothe me down, coax me..
whenever i walk away, run away, hide,
you'll always find me, hold me, hug me tight..
whenever i'm sad, moody,
you're always the first who realise it,
hug me, let me cry in your arms..
no matter what reason, you'll always give in..

but now, who is making who,
feeling that the distance's further?!
do you know why you think i'm demanding?!
do you know why every now and then i want your accompany?!
not that i don't want all this is the past..
have you ever step into my shoe and think for me?!
during secondary school days, i never asked,
because before & after school, recess, we'll be with each other..
monday to friday no change, i'll go your house,
saturday we go out together,
sunday you come my house, whole day..
this is why, i do not need to demand!
now, everything is different!
school's in simei, starting & ending time different,
no time for each other, that's why!
i keep asking you to accompany me!
tell me, what's the difference between last year & now?!
how long you accompany me in one week?!
last year, just only 2 weeks,
we're together more then my fingers could count..
now, within 2 weeks,
i can easily count in one hand,
how many times we accompanied each other..
you get the difference now?!
know why i keep want your accompany?!

don't tell me that you've no time for me,
dota, badminton, dinners,
all this you have time,
can't you spare out a little for me?!
is mingsiang more important than me?!
mingsiang & you will be,
what the fuck, how come dragged mingsiang in~
i just comparing, last time,
my time with you is more than mingsiang,
now, my time with you is less than mingsiang!
don't tell me that i'm drifting away from you,
because, i did not, is just that you've got no time for me!

i've planned so much for holidays,
don't ruin my plan, spoil my mood,
don't make me disappoint, crying alone..
if you really bare to see me sad, go ahead..
if not, you should know what you should do..
i keep repeating, i want my dear dear back,
don't you understand the meaning behind?!
where's my daily morning calls?!
where's my sweetly goodnight calls?!
where's my lovely messages?!
you promised before, a day at least 5 message,
where is it?! do i really need to beg you?!

do you know how i felt when i first read your blog?!
sorry weizhi, for making you worry me more,
i'm fine now, really, after crying, i felt better (:

thanks yizong, tas, alfie, danial & khai,
for entertainin me from thrusday, i appreciate it (:

2009-06-06T01:53:00.003+08:00

DO YOU REALLY MEANT IT, WHEN YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME?!

reached home damn early today!
he didn't even bothered to accompany me..
i'm seriously H-U-R-T!!!
i want him, i need him..
but, where is he?!
badminton, dota?!
i'm not as important as before anymore..
want me, treasure me,
don't want me, dump me,
this is how i felt,
hope, i'm just thinking too much~

went for dinner..
dinner suck, but, entertainment is more important!

daddy bought a laptop!!!
mini lenevo laptop!
white colour, my favourite!

2009-06-04T11:03:00.000+08:00

i'm tired ):

after school,
reached home,
my house is crowded!
when down coffee shop..

ME (:

ME & YUXUAN (:

ME & AMANDA (:

ME & MUMMY (:

ME & GRANDMA (:

MUMMY & BABES~

i've got nothing much to post..
if it's about him, save it..
only one sentence, i'm tired!!!

2009-06-03T22:44:00.002+08:00

EXAMS, EXAMS, EXAMS.. S-T-R-E-S-S!!!

i love my baby loads loads..
he reached school at 10.40am,
but, i've got not enough time to eat,
so he bought hotdog bread for me..
lunch time, wanted him to come find me,
yet, he acted moody, i thought what happened,
when i reached cafe 2, he was smiling at me!
such a fucker, bluff me to accompany him..
but, nevermind, i love him as he is (:
after school, he went to find me,
we went back together,
in train, he was sleeping all the way,
my feet are so so damn tired, you know!

reached my bastard's home,
he forced me to bathe, no choice..
when came out of bathroom,
scare me, i saw mummy tan!
stayed inside room while baby's bathing,
mummy tan suddenly came in,
she saw me making up,
asked me where we going..
i simply replied, no where~
LOLS!

my bastard made empty promise again!!!
how are you going to mend back?!
you have to accompany me for more than 24 hours,
hug me to sleep, kiss me gently in bed... ...
during my holidays, i want go sleepover!!!
i miss sleeping beside you at night!

2009-06-02T23:51:00.003+08:00

TIRED, TIRED, TIRED!!!

yesterday never update,
because laptop's no at home!!!
today update all in one shot~

yesterday, nothing much..
was late for HFC,
signed on the late form,
1st mark!!!

RULES :
signing the 3rd time,
have to go back to school,
during june holidays,
to do corrective work order ( CWO )!!!

FTY, open book test again!
but, overall, not so bad..
just that,
my womb is giving me problems!!!
pain whole day ):

today,
had my role play on EFC,
early in the morning,
my script is in fulscap!!!

FTY, had phase test,
didn't feel that stress,
but, can't say i'm not stress (:
i've got sense of joy,
because, i managed to clamp yiling's eyelashes!
HAHAHA~

tomorrow is going to be a great day,
only FTY theory is our lesson,
HFC only planning chalet menus,
2pm onwards, is NAPFA!!!
no care lesson for us,
so, after NAPFA is,
home sweet home,
going accompany my dearest (:

2009-05-31T18:15:00.002+08:00

SURPRISES ARE MEANT TO BE GIVEN & NOT MEANT TO BE ASKED!

life is stress & tired nowadays..
quarrels?! cold wars?!
go away please, i'm not keen to join!
people who want to find troubles with me,
kindly find a better way to vent your childish actions..
because, i'm busy right now to entertain freaks!

there's an open book test tomorrow,
on hand foot care ( HFC )... ...
tuesday i'll be having my role play,
on effective communication ( EFC )... ...
there's also a phase test going on,
on facial therapy ( FTY )... ...
i'm starting to feel S-T-R-E-S-S!!!

so, to everyone who wants to try,
pulling my mood down,
you can never succeed during this period,
because all i'll do is,
study, study, still study,
practice, practice, still practice..

how i wish i can turn back time,
everything won't happen in this way,
outcome won't be as disappointing... ...
but, let it past,
i'm still myself (:

study hard, strive hard for now!
i'm going to play hard during holidays!
all on-going events are being planned (:
will inform you guys on where to go,
we'll have fun togather!!!
sentosa, movie, k-box, sashimi,
wait for me~

to my bitches :
endure for 2 more weeks,
we can have our shopping spree togather!!!

HOLIDAYS = having more time to spend,
with my bitches, my clique,
and of course, my precious bastard (:

2009-05-30T17:50:00.005+08:00

WHY AM I STILL WONDERING?!

people tends to behave strangely,
especially people whom don't know how to cherish!

i want to go back to the past,
go back to when i'm in secondary..
go back with all my bitches around me,
having my precious by my side all the time too!
i miss those days,
will it come back?!

where's the used-to-be jiawen,
whom will alwaes voice out when she's unhappy..
where's the used-to-be yongseng,
whom will alwaes be there to coax me, comfort me..
where, where, where?!

sometimes, somethings can't be changed..
i understand the phrase,
" once bitten, twice shy " ..
but, why don't i ever learn from it?!
why do i have to face the same stress,
same question, same attitude,
every single month?!

what is friendship without secrets?!
what is relationship without trust?!

i'm the type of girl,
who sees relationship & career,
the most important in my life..
secondly is my family & friends..
what about you?!
which is most important to you?!
career, family, friends, money, freedom or me?!

a very strong sense of insecure i felt,
suddenly, i break down... ...
did some stupid things when i cried,
type nonsense in msn... ...
although i meant what i type,
but, i regretted being so implusive..

i miss the boy, who won't show me attitude..
i miss the boy, who used to coax me when i'm moody..
i miss the boy, sleeping beside me before 15th of january..
i miss the boy, i miss the boy... ...
i miss his hugs & kisses..
i miss him hugging me, telling me that he's mine,
whenever i tell him that i felt insecure..
but, where's that him now?!

i don't want
my bastard, my baby, my fucker, my laogong..
i only want
my zhuzhu, my dear dear, my xiaoboii, my aiai..

i miss you badly, will you come back?!
i want the previous TAN YONGSENG!!!
the one who will never,
shout at me, give me attitude, swear at me..
the one who will always,
be there when i need him, sayang me, kiss me gently..

i want that YONGSENG,
who will make me cry because i'm touched..
i don't want that YONGSENG,
who will make me cry because i'm disappointed..

i am craving for,

- concern messages
- surprise calls
- sweet talkings
- being hug to sleep
- coaxing, comforting
- lovely outings

where are all this?!
all above are used to be with me,
i'm always blessed by all this,
but, now, where is it?!

2009-05-30T17:43:00.001+08:00

did some personality quiz,
here are my results (:

1st quiz

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

2nd quiz

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

2009-05-29T23:22:00.003+08:00

STOP GIVING ME ATTITUDE & I'LL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE!

today's school was so-so,
didn't eat lunch,
due to my bastard pissed me off..
shall not elaborate more..

went to find him after school,
had a small tiff,
but,
managed to cool down..
lovely dovey babies (:
i love this type of feeling..

all i want,
is only you,
your companion,
your sweettalkings,
your love & caring..
at least you showed (:

but,
i want no more attitude from you!

so hope i don't need go home,
can stay over at baby house tonight,
so, i can hug him to sleep like i used to (:
but, nevermind, all i need,
is to wait, wait for the time to come..

2009-05-28T21:57:00.004+08:00

JIAWEN MISS HER STRAIGHT HAIR!!!

yesterday, lazy update..
was lisabelle's therapist for FTY,
she damn "auto", alot things i don't need do,
but, at least, i managed to finish fast!
i love lisabelle (:

today, nothing much,
p.e lesson was swimming!
after swimming,
me, jingjing, jas & cherry,
shared the same cubicle for shower,
for the same, i'm always the one naked first!
the other 3 was shocked by me~
but,
i managed to convince them strip too..
but jingjing don't dare, so,
i stripped her!
HAHAHA~

whole day,
i spent my time with jingjing!
only attended p.e & FTY lesson..
FTY, got a surprise test,
but, luckily it's open book test,
but, no difference made,
because the answers can't be found!!!
somehow, it wasn't really difficult (:
after that, at 2.30pm,
when down to meet valencia,
to be her model (:
ms eng suddenly came to see me (:

now my hair seems soo soo weird!!!

me & valencia,
my hairstylist of the day!

to H.PEIYING:
i know you're fucking jealous right now!
because, my digital perming is FREE!!!

didn't see my bastard today, sad ):
i want hh & kk from my bastard!!!
for every single day in my life (:

i'm happy like flying now!
tomorrow's extra lesson is CANCELLED!!!
got time to accompany my bastard already (^_^*)

2009-05-26T22:30:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY BASTARD LOADS!!!

model & therapist of the day,
for facial practical (:
lisabelle is the 1st therapist i praised!
because, she have the patience to,
remove stubborn mascara & eyeliner!
applause for her~
i like her make-up on me too!
HAHAHA~
she's my new "baby" now!!!

today,
no much to post about,
just that,
pendicure was a shock for me!
wanted to go to the therapist i want,
yet, ms eng asked me to be windy's model..
fantastic!
suposingly to be guiding windy through massaging,
but, due to lack of time,
ms eng said painting is enough..
lucky for me, because, i don't know how to teach!
HAHAHA~
me, jas, cherry & lisabelle,
kept talking all the way (:

that's all for today,
tummy damn pain,
i'm damn tired..

i miss him too ):

2009-05-25T23:12:00.004+08:00

SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN GIVES US RAINBOW!!!

was moody the whole day,
due to i'm too sensitive?!
just like what ms berlyn tan said..
ignore them if i really can't take it..
well, i did, but,
the feeling in me just sucks!

during lunchtime,
my bastard came find me,
yet, i show attitude..
sorry bastard tan (:

i was seriously in a bad mood,
1st time since i've step into ite,
but, jefferson just don't understand,
my simple english..
fine~
i tried to hold my temper,
yet, i cried ):
stupid me..

when weizhi, peiying & audrey,
found out that i cried,
they started to get more agitated..
i'm fine, really (:
just like what this 3 told me,
just curse & swear at him,
why tolerate, yet, cry?!
i want no troubles, alright?!

1st time in my life,
saw such hardworking kid,
printed out everything as proof..
well, dare print out,
why don't dare give me personally?!
actually, i didn't know so much,
is just after i met my guys at 6.30pm,
everything come out as fact..
we talk things out,
met jefferson at nanyang community club,
sloved everything in a nice way..

found out that, sometimes,
friends are scary..
they can seem as helping you,
but, when you're in trouble,
where is that friend?!
he/she create the troubles with you,
but, when we went down,
there's no sight of him/her!

i told jefferson,
true friends are those,
willing to sacrifice for you..
not, trying to hide instead..

to jefferson:
if you kind of happen to read my blog,
be honoured, this is specially for you!
like i've told you,
yongseng attitude seriously suck,
but, he meant no harm (:
if you think you can't handle him,
let me do the job instead..
because, i believe that,
no one else can knock sense into him..
just like what mingsiang told you,
the more harsh you get,
yongseng will never listen,
yet, turn things even nasty..
no one, except me,
dare to shout/curse him (:
as for your friend,
i don't think there's a need,
for me to help her talk to yongseng,
since she's so stubborn and thinks that,
yongseng will listen to her,
and change his attitude,
let me tell you, no way!

that's all for today,
thanks to :
weizhi, audrey,
naas, mingsiang, yen ting & xiao yi,
for being there with me (:
as for my bastard, he got training ):

2009-05-24T15:55:00.003+08:00

WISH ALL FAKERS AROUND ME & MY BOYFRIEND, DIE YOUNG,WITHOUT KIDS~

yesterday went to work..
tired tired tired!
but, can't sleep at night,
because i'm happily playing..

my baby seems innocent,
so damn cute & "stupid"..
HAHAHA~
shall not state why (:

planned to go loyang later,
but, no one accompany me go..
now, i damn sad, angry~
because, mingsiang, gerline & weizhi,
all last minute call me to go..
alright, i'll go on thrusday (:
HAHAHA~

good luck to juboon troupe..
especially my baby,
take good care of yourself,
drink more water, no injuries!

to fakers & fuckers, mind your words!
especially the one who type something in his msn,
"si lang pong sai gao . ur pubor wan play parents sibo?
tell her btr write scripts on how to apologise to my laobu lar hor"..
let me till you,
with this words you typed, i can sue you!

you have zero modern sense,
don't even know about yo mama's jokes,
are you really a teenager?!
how come you seem to be living in the 70's?!
everything hokkien, think you sound cool?!
please, teenagers should behave like teenagers,
not acting as if you're an adult, when you're not!
with this type of sure fail english standard,
and this type of influent hokkien standard,
you can never step into the society with pride,
because, you'll be out..

want us to apologise to you?!
wait till you sleep inside the coffin,
you will never hear a single ~~sorry~~ from us!
you think you very big right?!
got balls to swear at me & my baby,
say nice nice that you want meet all those that said watever..
ask us go jurong west find you?!
you are the one trying to find troubles,
why not you, go taman jurong community club instead?!
your english seriously FAIL,
i said people you want to meet always hang out there,
i did not say that they are staying there!
fucking brush up your sucky english..
want to meet me?!
need emphasis?!
say i don't dare go?!
fucking buay hiao bai!
fancy a guy like you trying to tio with me?!
castrate yourself please, you're dickless!

my boyfriend is two headed snake?!
i'm interfering too much?!
i'm his girlfriend, i have the right to interfer!
because you are finding troubles with him!
both of you, trying to create troubles,
look, whose attitude suck more?!
both of you or my boyfriend?!
at least he dare to speak out,
dare to say what he thinks about you!
unlike you, only know how to be,
"high technology" dogs, bark( type ) in his tagboard..
i seriously look down on the both of you!
one more thing, as i've said,
once you try to find trouble with him,
you are also finding trouble with me & our clique!
what?! "once a clique, forever a clique"?!
let me tell you, me & my boyfriend with our clique,
stayed togather longer than you & your clique!
ownself typing words to slap own mouth..
HAHAHA~
my boyfriend was once in your clique too,
but, is it really ~~forever~~ as a clique?!
bullshit okays!
don't tell me that you've never quarreled,
with someone whom once close with you..
reflect on yourself, before,
commenting on my boyfriend has a sucky attitude!

trying to create big troubles over such small things,
i don't think your attitude can be better than,
the sucky attitude my boyfriend gave to you, as you described!
of course, my boyfriend isn't an apple in your eyes!
because he only belongs to me, so,
you do not have any fucking right to comment on him!

well, i don't give a damn on how you want to settle this,
because, me & my boyfriend with our clique,
will face it togather with my boyfriend,
dare to touch him or lay your dirty hands on him,
you watch out!

2009-05-22T22:19:00.003+08:00

DON'T FUCKING GO OVERBOARD, LET ME WARN YOU!

JEALOUS?! ANGRY?! CONFUSED?!

2 different groups of people,
trying to find troubles with me,
because of the same issue!!!

have you ever wondered,
what are classmates for?!
what are friends for?!
what are clique for?!

when a friend achieved something,
shouldn't you, as a friend,
feel proud for him/her?!
instead,
you're trying to withdraw,
trying to create troubles..
did you even think before,
why people can get it, and you don't!

THINK
why he/she can succeed easily, but not you!
why teachers recommended him/her, but not you!
why he/she tends to get praisings, but not you!
why he/she is able to achieve much better results than you?!

before thinking of what people is bad at,
why not think about yourself, what you suck at?!
alright, i shall stop critizing~

today was pissed & loved at the same time..
but, being loved and pampered more (:
baby, i love you!!!
meiyi was my model for facial practical..
quite satisfied with my make-up (:
ms berlyn tan made my heart fly once again!
she says my make-up is nice,
just that the eyeliner can be abit more fuller..
when released for lunch,
she held me back, i thought what happen,
after the class left, only me & meiyi stay behind,
than, ms tan examine me..
conversation,
ms berlyn tan :
" hmm.. overall grooming, no problem,
but, you have to cut your fringe..
i'm going to 'sell' you out,
you have nice eyes, healthy look
& you are photogenic..
have you heard any news?! "
me :
" no, why?! what news?! "
ms berlyn tan :
" you have a high chance going another interview! "

when i heard this,
my heart flew up higher than yesterday!
told baby what teacher said,
i'm damn excited, you know?!

shall not say what happened during lunch..

baby waited for me AGAIN!!!
today was a SWEET SWEET day for me (:

okays,
ended this post with baby's love in me (:

2009-05-20T22:11:00.003+08:00

I MISS HIS HUGS & KISSES ):

today,
went to school late,
by 10 mins!!!
damn bus,
but, can't be blame..
i choose to walk slowly instead..
HAHAHA~

lesson was fun..
just that, i'm stress out,
because,
whole day learning bone structures!
tired of memorising the terms... ...
but, no choice, have to pass my test >.<"

facial practical,
meiyi was my therapist of the day (:
ms berlyn tan says that,
my eyes are very pretty~
she says i'm photogenic too~
WOOHOO xp

care lesson was SHIOK~

after school,
went for dance practice,
damn tired, you know?!

tomorrow P.E, P.E..
YEAH!!!
i love P.E now,
don't know why, crazy?!
maybe because of,
i got to run about in school,
but, not in my uniform (:
HAHAHA~

this are yesterday's photos..
i did the make up for her, nice right?!
HAHAHA~

therapist & model (:

wanxin, meiyi, yiling & me!

i damn freaking miss my baby ):

2009-05-19T22:29:00.004+08:00

I MISS MY BASTARD DEARLY!!!

today wake up,
it's a torture for me!
vomit & tummyache..
when to school late!
1st time i'm late for school~

plan not to go,
but,
pendicure teaching massage,
facial teaching scrubbing,
plus,
need to go for 2nd round interview..
no choice but to go school..

whole day did not see baby,
can't complain how sick i felt ):

my model was meiyi for the whole day!
quite satisfied with my makeup on meiyi..
i did a night makeup,
damn suitable for clubbing you know?!
HAHAHA..
just that,
our uniform do not suit that style ):
pictures will be uploaded on tomorrow's post..

interview was stressful,
but,
i'm not as scared as before..
questions asked was moderate,
i managed to answer all without effort!
surprisingly~

hopefully,
what i get is good news..

scholarship is real troublesome~
because,
1st round of interview,
is with section head & school staffs..
2nd round of interview,
is with HR of the sponsoring company..
if get short-listed again,
3rd round of interview,
is go to the company for selection!
how many rounds of interview is needed?!

i don't put much hope on scholarship,
because, there are strong competitors too!
overall,
i can say is,
it's just a try (:

to my baby :
take good care of yourself during training,
don't make me worry for you, so much, alright?!

i've got back my phone,
able to reply messages with ease now!

sickly me~
my bastard's no here for me ):
i'm not there for him either ):
i miss him loads loads loads!!!

2009-05-18T23:43:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOE PEIYING, MY DEAREST BITCH!

i'm quite happy today!

baby, came find me during lunch time..
after lunch time, when up to class,
just step in room, everyone is calling me,
i'm confused on who to answer..

the news is :
i'm going for another round of interview,
after being specially picked,
me, jingjing, huiting, yijun & crystal,
we're the ones being selected..
but, afterall, only 2 candidates can get..
what am i refering to?!
of course is scholarship!!!
during school term, 1 month $400..
during I.A.,1 month $700-$1000..
who's not tempted for it?!

another news is,
i scored full marks on,
the 1st paper of open book test..
and, lost 1 mark on,
the 2nd paper of open book test..
but,
i still recieve chocolates!!!

alright,
wish me good luck & all the best..
i hope i can achieve what i want..

i miss my bastard dearly ):

2009-05-17T23:03:00.004+08:00

nothing to post about~

HAPPY
30th
MONTHSARY ):

nothing much to post..

just 3 words,
i miss him~

2009-05-16T22:58:00.005+08:00

DO YOU MISS ME AS MUCH AS I DO?!

someone is still petty..
thinking that i'm still angry?!
don't know what i want?!
seriously, are you my boyfriend?!

you, yourself didn't bother,
to even took the initative to contact me,
why should i?!
don't say that you DON'T understand me!
complaining with a glum face?!
well, unless you take the 1st step,
or else, happy waiting for your call to myself~

making me worry for you is your breed..
knows how to contact people for dota,
don't know how to contact me..
must well delete my contact?!

GREAT LIAR!!!
saying nicely that,
you'll message me after training,
yet, i recieved none from YOU instead..

you won't give in?!
me too!
i WILL NOT give in!
unless you take the initative..

nice new name for me,
" attitude princess"..
call me that instead of,
"darling", "baby" or even "laopo"!

going to be 17th of may in few more minutes..
will you call?!
i doubt so~

2009-05-16T15:34:00.015+08:00

CRAVING FOR COSMETICS & BAGS.. WHICH SHOLD I BUY?!

CONCEALER

FOUNDATION

LOOSE POWDER

EYESHADOW

EYELINER

BLUSHER

MASCARA

LIP BLAM

LIP LINER

LIP STICK

LIP GLOSS

MAKE-UP KIT

BRUSH SET

FAKE EYELASHES

CONTACT LENS

GUCCI & CHANEL WALLET

LV & CHANEL BAG

don't know which should i choose..
i gonna buy cosmetics, 1 wallet, 2 bags..
but, which should i choose?!
fake eyelashes & contact lens,
are only for consideration..

2009-05-15T23:10:00.003+08:00

UNBELIEVABLE, UNTRUSTED LOVE~

everything was fine,
until, after school..
attitude problem again..
managed not to tell a single soul what happened..
but,
keeping things feels uncomfortable ):

yesterday too tired to update blog..
to diya & pinyen,
don't nag me anymore,
i've linked you girls (:

lunchtime,
baby never accompany me,
because he's not in school ):
while ordering my food,
saw yipbei,
we have a nice chat afterall (:

after school,
waited for "danny", "alfie" & "khai"..
get to know another guy name "tas"..
bus-ed home togather~

reach home, changed,
send my phone for servicing!
cost me $40... ...
taking back on sunday..
call me instead of message,
because, spare phone suck!
i'm not used to typing~

shall not state about today,
because, seriously,
my day sucks to the core!
thinking that baby will accompany me,
have a great time togather,
yet, things turn out opposite ):

phone flooded~
whole afternoon,
keep blinking,
due to i off the sound & vibration..
but, still irritating,
because, it blinks non-stop!
awhile baby, mingsiang then maid..
call & call non-stop..
ahamd, "danny", my bitches,
message me non-stop..
i want a break~~~
i'm too tired for any problems..
quarreling, outing, messaging,
i can only say that,
i've got no mood for it `

i'll remember everything today,
i'm a attitude princess,
loves wasting your precious time..
you won't give in to me again!
superb at hanging phones & walking off now?!
let's see how long can we continue..
as i've said from the beginning,
i DO NOT tolerate attitude which piss me off,
only my boyfriend gives in & NOT me!
take it or leave it, up to you..

fancy having a nice try threatening me,
last chance, last warning?!
or else, no more steps = BREAK?!
if you bare, go ahead..
now my turn to say,
you can, i can't?!

everytime piss me off,
than apologise,
say how you loved me..
i'll accept it,
till the day,
you really bare to leave me..
but, let's hope there won't be this day..

2009-05-13T21:53:00.004+08:00

baby has no time for me ):

monday, tuesday & today,
baby never accompany me home at all!
but,
he accompanied me for breakfast & lunch!
MWARKS MWARKS <3

today,
i'm wanxin's therapist..
disappointed with the outcome,
the result sucks to the core!

care lesson was so uptight,
ms eng suddenly conducted spot checked!
don't know who lodged complain... ...

after school,
went for dance audition,
me, pinyen & huiting (:
made new friends again!
they are,
jennifer, joanne, michelle & shirong..
* pardon me if i've made a mistake~

tomorrow,
no p.e.,
but,
have to reach school by 9.30am..
due to scholarship interview!
going be boring for 3 hours 15 mins!
baby, come accompany me can?!

i need more time, time, time!
i want more time for my baby!
if no cca, release at 5 or 6pm..
if release early, got cca ):
no more time for my precious baby~
only saturday & sunday... ...
i'm superb tired, you know?!

2009-05-12T21:22:00.009+08:00

TODAY, I'M WANXIN'S MODEL..
this is wanxin 1st time making up,
outcome, still not bad (:

my eyelash become very long right?!

outcome after wanxin doll me up (:
everyone says, clipping up my hair,
suits me more than my fringe..
is this true?!

me & andrea (:

me & lisabelle (:

me & wanxin (:
she's my buddy~

me & jingjing (:
she's my girlfriend~

me & pinyen (:

me & jolene (:
she's my mummy~

early in the morning,
7 am, meet ahmad at AMK HUB,
8 am, meet baby for breakfast..
love my baby loads loads (:
meet me for breakfast,
serve me, help me crack eggs,
accompany me go up to my class,
help me carry my starter kit..

but,
baby broke his promise again ):
never accompany me go home!!!
SOBX SOBX

sometimes, i'm still confused..
should i or should i not give up?!
on the outside,
everything can be seen as PERFECT!
on the inside,
my heart somehow feels EMPTY~
why is that so?!

am i really your baby?!
i miss 170607 alot alot..
i miss dear dear instead of baby..
i hate my life,
eversince 150109, i'll never forget..
who's there to brainwash me?!

eveytime i say,
i will put the past behind,
but, the fact is,
i can't seem to be over yet..

2009-05-10T23:36:00.003+08:00

I MISS MR. KOH-TAN YONG SENG!!!

it's sunday!
mummy's day!
yet, i'm feeling boring!!!
i miss my baby... ...
i want hh, kk~

nothing to post about too ):
whole day stucked in facebook..
msn flooded!!!
but, i'm still boring~
why, why, why?!

my bastard everytime training, training..
no time to accompany me at all!
yes, i am complaining!

just by calling & messaging me,
is not enough at all!
i am a demanding girlfriend~
i want you by my side..
hug me to sleep every night (:

FASTER FASTER GROW UP,
THAN CAN STAY TOGATHER WITH MY BABY!!!

2009-05-09T20:14:00.008+08:00

alright, quite a few days,
did not managed to update my blog..
i am back to bring it back to life!

today
never go find my bastard,
because i'm too lazy & tired..
sorry baby~

yesterday
lunch time, my bastard came find me..
waited for me until 1.30pm (:
baby, seat outside my class for 1 hour!
thank you baby~
mwarks mwarks <33

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY TAN & MUMMY HOE!!!

THRUSDAY
unluckily, keep bumping into that _ _ _ _ !
nevermind, my baby is forever mine (:
READ HERE!
YOU'LL NEVER STAND A CHANCE!
i trust my bastard now~
no one can ever break us up again!

waited for baby after school,
accompany him go home (:
shall not say what happened on the way..
reached baby house,
1st thing mummy tan say is,
"yong seng bully you again arhs?!"
HAHAHA~

when going bathe,
mummy tan let me use her bathroom!
baby, you jealous right?!
cannot use your mummy's bathroom (:
after bathing,
i took my own sweet time... ...
get nagged by mummy tan again ):

celebrate mummy tan's birthday..
we went to swensens for dinner (:
took alot of pictures of us!!!
due to i keep bullying the two brothers,
and cam-whoring all the way,
baby's parents say i'm crazy!!!

this is mummy tan!!!
eating baby's banana split..

sweet couple right?!
let me introduce,
this is MUMMY TAN & DADDY TAN!
mummy tan complain about my shooting skills ):
saying that the pictures made her look fat!
mummy tan : you're not fat okay~
baby's brother's chocolate ice-cream!

let me introduce,
this is TAN YONG WEN!
my bastard's younger brother (:

this is me~

my baby very handsome right?!

don't envy..
i love baby loads <33

2nd year celebrating mummy tan's birthday (:
there's still be many many years,
i'll be celebrating baby's family's birthday!
i promise~
i'll never leave my baby alone anymore~

2009-05-06T20:12:00.003+08:00

DO YOU REALLY LOVE ME WHOLE-HEARTEDLY?!

even though you're accompaning me everyday,
i still can't feel the same as before... ...
i can see that you're trying very hard,
but, i seriously sense that,
you're keeping something from me... ...
be it your troubles, your thinking or her..
nevermind, since you're not willing to speak,
i won't force you, just let time slowly fade away,
those unhappy, unpleasant memories in me... ...

am i really important to you?!
nothing seems to show me that i meant something to you..

but,
i love you <3

2009-05-05T21:03:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOH BOON MIN!

nothing much to post about today..
during HFC,
our section head given a speech..
shall not post more in detail..
during FTY,
i've got no model today!!!
ms tan asked our senior to be my model,
i damn nervous, you know?!
but, managed to make friends with her,
plus, i've got praised by ms tan!!!

yesterday's photo~

baby accompany me till so late, tired right?!
i love you boy~ MWARKS <33

alright, goodnight peeps..
baby, read here,
sleep early okays?!

2009-05-03T03:12:00.006+08:00

should i be angry or sad?!
OR
should i be disappointed or pissed?!

can't go find my bastard later ):
i miss him damn alot, you know?!

this world is so FUCKING small!
most of the _ _ _ _s i knew are all staying at
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!!!
happened to find out that,
a girlfriend of _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ,
happens to be linked between 2 of the _ _ _ _s..
1st person i told was liang weizhi,
she was laughing like hell all the way~
this coincedence teaches me that,
do not speak ill about others upon making new friends,
because, you'll never know who your new friends are..

to my dear bitches & bastards,
please DO NOT put ~~someone~~ in the same group as me!
you girls are my bitches, i am also a typical bitch!
so, DO NOT call a SLUT as a BITCH,
it is totally different!!!

before you come into my blog,
it shows clearly,
" if you don't know the difference between bitches & sluts, then so sorry you're not fit to be my friend. "
so, she is not a bitch, she is a slut!!!
make it right okays! (^_^)`

haiz... ...

2009-05-02T02:16:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO CRY MY HEART OUT!!!

planned to go find my bastard later..
but, daddy ask to help out later..
i felt sense of heart pain when i agreed with it ):

i just want to sort things out..
i am confused about myself, my thinking..
what does love represents when there's a doubt?!

i should be feeling happy, glad,
but, instead, i felt like crying!!!
what the hell is going wrong with me?!

saw _ _ _ _ _ _'s name on _ _ _ _ - _ _ _ _ ..
my heart sunken straight away..
i am not going to accept any excuses anymore..
leave me alone,
i don't need anyone to pity me,
i don't need YOU to feel guilty,
it will only make _ _ _ _ _ _ more like a _ _ _ _ !

i will no longer trust anyone in my life!
found out that everyone is a hypocrite!

i am going to keep my thinking to myself,
until the day, _ _ _ _ _ _ is completely out of my life,
or rather, completely out of YOUR life, YOUR mind, YOUR world!

i should just say, the feeling SUCK!!!
is either she's out, or, i'm forever OUT!

want to tell me that you suck?!
yes, you really suck to the core,
but, i don't understand why i still love you so deeply!

everyone's word keep swirling in my mind..
" if he really loves you, he'll wait for you whole-heartedly & not asking for esleone hand. finding excuses telling you that he don't love her at all, she's just a replacement of you, using her to forget you but can't. "

when i tell you about this, what did you say in return?!
you told me :
" you surely trust them more than me. "
and you kept quiet..
don't even bother to care how i feel!

i just tried to rack up her name,
what you gave me in return?!
showing me attitude,
giving me black face,
worst, shout at me!
did you even care to comfort me?!

am i asking too much from you?!
you always have excuses,
you're always too tired..
accompaning me cost your life!
after everything, all you did is just apologise..

a relationship for 2 years 5 months,
look so strong, yet, so fragile... ...

upon reading this post,
what are you thinking?!
want to ask me..
" so, want you want now?! "

let me tell you,
i want my baby back,
i want my past back,
i want my trust back,
i want everything back..
can you do that?!

i bet, i ask you not to message me,
you really won't even send a single one..

i don't need you to explain anything,
action speaks louder than words..
after everything, if i still can't trust you,
no matter how sad i'll be, i'll still leave..
even if i don't bare,
even if i'll cry the hell out of myself,
even if i'll regret for the whole of my life,
i'll still give up... ...
because,
a relationship without trust,
is difficult maintaining... ...

if you really love me whole-heartedly,
you should understand how i feel... ...
or rather, you should know how much you've hurt me,
find ways to mend it, before it's too late... ...

let me remind you over here,
ever since we've patched up,
i've been tolerating your attitude..
let me remind you the date & what you've done..

8th of april'09
you thought i blocked you in msn,
accused me for putting you in a spot,
i never throw temper, yet, tolerate..

12th of april'09
planned to go find you after you training,
don't even know that you're in a bad mood,
called you happily to ask where are you,
yet, you give me attitude & hanged my phone..
after you hang, weizhi took another train,
and, i'm alone, crying in the train, you know?!

15th of april'09
called you to wake up for training,
i don't know what made you pissed off,
you hanged my phone & never reply my message..
worried that you'll starve yourself,
called boonmin to ask him make sure you eat..
when you hang my phone, i'm in bugis,
with meiyi & wanxin,
i felt like crying, but, can't... ...

16th of april'09
you pushed me away when i hold you,
outside the school library toilet,
reason; because _ _ _ _ _ _ is there..
you know how i feel at that moment?!
after that, grandma called you,
i've got no idea what she said to you,
when i call to concern, what you did?!
you're swearing, cursing vulgarities at me!
1st time, my tears flow down in college east..

18th of april'09
you went to cafe haven to find me,
just for awhile, then you saw _ _ _ _ _ _ ,
you quickly stand up & walk away..
the other 3 was asking me,
why are you treating me this way,
i've got no answer for it... ...

30th of april'09
you know what caused everything..
but, you seems to be giving me,
your attitude the whole day... ...

alright, baby,
i know you love me whole-heartedly,
but, i'm just afraid & scared... ...
sorry for making you feel sad,
i don't mean it... ...
i'll accompany you next week okays?!
mwarks, i love you loads!!!
just give me sometime (:

2009-05-01T22:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO WISELY ONG (^_^*)

yesterday too lazy to update my blog..
just now on my laptop, saw JOLENE's tag,
seriously, i am shock!!!
TO JOLENE :
power! manage to find my blog so fast (:

yesterday wasn't really my day..
keep racking up _ _ _ _ _ _'s name..
keep using her to say him..
keep emoing every now and then..
keep switching mood from hyper to hypo..
keep seeing someone i DO NOT wish to see!
please, keep away from me,
I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE YOU ANY CHANCE!
read on the top left hand corner,
it shows clearly, I AM ATTACHED!!!
i admit, a few drops of tears flow down,
when i am walking to class B05-31..
luckily, my tears did not ruin my makeup..
surprised that almost half my class saw what happened..
asking me whether am i okay, why quarrel..
thanks girls XP
1st time attending a class full of girls,
feeling's not bad, because, there's no need to be shy!

found out that i bomb someone AGAIN!!!
sorry, a very very big SORRY!!!
actually promised to attend this event,
eventually, i've forgotten clean about it... ...
don't scold me, i'll make it back, with your present (:

actually going find my bastard today too,
but, i am too tired to leave house..
my decision disappointed you, did i?!
sorry baby~
alright,
KOH JIAWEN/ TAY JINGWEN,
should learn to forgive & forget,
let the past remains at it is,
shouldn't let it affect myself..
so, _ _ _ _ _ _ this person,
is on longer in my mind... ...
i just need time to put it aside..
BITCHES SHOULD HAVE CONFIDENCE IN THEMSELVES..
so, who's out there to boost up my confidence?!

i've lead out my biggest tolerance path,
so, do not try to go beyond the line, you'll regret!

2009-04-30T14:45:00.004+08:00

having EFC lesson now,
nothing better to do..
me & glenna started spreading... ...
almost everyone was reading at GARYNG'S blog!!!

laughter is everywhere..
everyone was asking about how we knew aboout it..
yiling, wanxin & meiyi asked,
i replied, MR. TAN YONGSENG told me about it!
HAHAHA~
alright, stop my nonsense here..
when i go home, i'll update more!

T.Y.S spoilt my mood just now!
better coax me okay, or else, i don't care about you..
KIDDING KIDDING, i won't bare to do that..
mwarks baby <33

you can never succeed! - low class bitches~

2009-04-29T21:45:00.002+08:00

went out of house at 8.30am,
but, unexpectedly,
i reached school at 9.10am!
so damn freaking early, you know?!

baby accompanied me for lunch =p
i love love love you loads, MR. BASTARD!

i am really turning ~~sotong~~!
forgot to bring HFC training notes..
luckily, miss eng never teach, due to no aircon,
she released us 30mins earlier for lunch!

yesterday, i was rara's model,
today, i am wanxin's model..
pity myself, eyebrow getting LESSER!
i want baby to sayang me~~~
because, i am tired & everywhere ache ):
baby, sayang me, massage massage!!!

i am starting to look down on some people in my class..
especially the clique of self-thinking "highly" standard girls..
shall not indicate what they did to make me look down on them..
thanks to my 3 bitches, i am fine,
they won't dare to touch or find troubles with me..
if they really do, like i promised, i'll tell you 3 about it..
alright, i shall stop everything here... ...

wish me good luck for my upcoming test (:

LOVES <3

2009-04-28T21:59:00.003+08:00

beauty therapy~

today's mood was UP & DOWN!
all thanks to my precious bastard..
but, everything's alright (:

stupid me,
forgot to bring wallet to school!
thank you baby, mwarks!!!

practical lesson,
i almost fell asleep..
but, i never!
plucking of eyebrows, ouch!
but, awhile later,
i am used to the "pain"..
because, it's not my 1st time~

alright, night peeps!
i am very tired now..
baby never sayang me ):
HAHAHA!
if i can sleep beside him now, how great... ...

2009-04-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

people laugh, people cry, what about me?!
sinking into a world full of my own ~~untrusting stupidity~~...
SERIOUSLY, I NEED HELP!!!

today, was so-so..
i am starting not to trust,
not a single one in my life..
maybe, except my baby... ...

i tried to speak out,
but, stituation do not approve..

many things keep rushing through,
my mind is in a total mess..

friends, family, boyfriend,
which is which?!
who is who?!
what is what?!
i am confused... ...

lessons are starting to turn,
more & more tough,
more & more things to memorise..
medical terms, longman terms..
i am turning insane too!

how i wish... ... ...
i am staying with baby right now,
he is right beside me now,
hugging me, kissing me, comforting me..

he always have ways to teach me,
how to memorise those important points..
but, baby is not with me now ):
all he know is ~~DOTA~~ ~~DOTA~~ still ~~DOTA~~!

BABY, READ HERE :
I AM DEMANDING NOW!
YOU SPENT FAR TOO "MUCH" TIME ON ME..
I MUST ALWAYS STAY 1ST IN YOUR HEART OKAYS!
IF NOT, I SURE MAKE YOU SUFFER! - you know how~
( i meant what i say just now, on 13:o4 )
FORGET WHAT I SAY?! - ask me personally!

but, no matter what, i still love you..
baby, always, trust me the most =p
i love you, forever (:
i am most willing to stay by you... ...
MWARKS~

2009-04-26T20:49:00.005+08:00

DELAYED PICTURES~
alright, during practical,
this is how i look like!

meet daddy & mummy at vivo..
this is what we eat (:

MY LAPTOP IS "CURED"!!!
finally can update my blog!!!

alot of feelings,
which i don't know how to express out..
lack of confidence towards you?!
hope this feeling faster go away..
why am i still thinking this way?!
baby, i am sorry, i still need time..

i miss my bastard!!!
i want hh, kk you!!!

disappointment in my heart, something is missing..
baby, fill up my heart with your everything, will you?!
MWARKS~ MWARKS~ MWARKS~ MWARKS~ MWARKS~

JIAWEN IS FEELING DOWN... ...

2009-04-23T14:47:00.003+08:00

don't know why am starting to feel everything in a different way ): feeling of insecure is a phobia for me, but, i still have to face it unwillingly ): disappointed in every single thing you done... ... don't ask me why is that so, you know it yourself... ...

laptop spoilt!!!
so, i won't be posting for the time being..

to some guys out there,
stop your fucking nonsense!
as i've said, no consideration!

pissed feeling?!
i don't really know what caused that..
i am not going to entertain craps from now on!
fucking keep your ass to yourself!

to someone :
i don't care whatever excuse you have,
i am not going to forgive you easily!
so what if your reasons are acceptable?!
i have enough of your fucking shit!
please to do not try to ask who am i refering to..

KOH JIAWEN WILL NEVER TOLERATE NONSENSE,
FROM ANY SINGLE ONE OF YOU, AGAIN!!!

TIRED! TIRED! TIRED!

2009-04-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

I MISS T.Y.S
alright! i am too tired to upload the photos!
today damn tired!!!
school bag very heavy!
having headache whole day!!!
tummy cramp whole day!!!
what the fuck~

will upload pictures tomorrow..
due to my bastard don't allow me,
stay up late ):

am i really statisfied with you around?!

I AM BORING!!!

2009-04-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

welcome to my new blog!

tomorrow's lesson again!
going bring tool box!!!
*excited*

baby, i miss you~

I LOVE TODAY~

2009-04-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

i am so tired, you know?!
slept around 4am, wake up at 7am..
just to get prepared to find my bastard..
yet, he still says, i'm late!!!
never pamper me still bully me! - nevermind (:
wanted to sleep, but can't, don't know why..

saw his mother, i suddenly turn very quiet?!
but, i still talk okays! just abit lesser than before (:
then, his mother nagged about our "past"?!
we was like ( ya ya ) , but, i still respect alright!
baby was like, bullying me the whole day?!
HAHAHA.. - little naughty bastard (:

wanted to snap him in bus,
but, when i just on the camera,
he asked me, whether what am i trying to do..
then, i quickly act as if i've did nothing at all (:
in the end, still managed to take pictures :DD

upload it?! oh yes, i will surely upload!
because there's photo of him sleeping~

got snapped by him~
i look damn "cui"~

yeah! my turn to snap him (:

he look so "qian da" right?!

this looks handsome, is it him?! - LOLS!

alright, he's sleeping.. - shh~

he look damn adorable in this photo..

don't try to snatch, he is mine :DD

i love today alot alot, damn alot..

kind of misses the "past" of ours..

but now, everything's back!

baby is still my baby, forever mine (:

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
MWARKS~~~

YEAH! make up kit!!! =D

2009-04-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

i have been eating vanilla ice-cream waffle this few days!

YILING & ME~

our pendicure classroom!

our facial & massaging room!

my tool box!!! =DD

the contents inside tool box!

full set of brushes!!! ( 12 pieces )

makeup set!!!

60 eyeshawdows, 12 lipgloss, 6 blushers!!!

i am excited because of the brush set & makeup set (:
beauty therapy students are so lucky to have all this!
none beauty therapy students, don't envy us okays!
1st term of lessons, we are learning,
basic makeups, facial, medicure, pendicure..
2nd term of lessons, we are learning,
spa, body massage & a choice of our own..
be it advanced makeups or nails art or body massage..
theory lessons are fun, but, too much things to memorise..
scared that my brain can't function well,
because, there's too much medical names for body parts..
even nails structure & skeleton, we also have to learn ):

charlie, charlie, let me explore your body well,
in order to memorise your every parts, i'll try loving you!
beauty therapy students should know who am i refering :p

end of week one, class rules, damn alot, damn strict..
who ask us to be so lucky, having a discipline mistress as our CA..
CLASS RULES :
1. bun up hair neatly, no covering of eyebrows..
2. strictly no fake eyelashes and waterproof makeups..
3. no coloured hairs and contact lenses..
4. only light makeups are allowed..
5. strictly no alterings of uniforms..
6. grace timing of 5 mins..
7. no braclets, anklets or necklaces..
8. no extempting of classes for more then once a week,
be it with medical leave or not, you'll be expelled..

aiming for higher nitec next year, after completing..
because a new course is coming out!!!
it is a continuing course for beauty therapy,
called spa therapy, teaches spa & aroma of oils..

i love my bastard loads!!!
i know you love me loads too (:

I KNOW I AM CUTE!

2009-04-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

today, i'm actually very happy,
but, before ending school,
my mood fall abit,
after release, my mood,
went to fucking unhappy!
i felt like crying, you know?!
but, it's shame to cry in public..
nevermind, forget it,
i don't wish to elaborate more..

i'm waiting for tomorrow!
all april intake,
beauty therapy students,
sure love tomorrow!!!!!
YEAH! our make up kit (:
eye shadows, lip gloss,
full set of brushes,
artificial nails, eyelash curler,
damn alot more things!
woohoo~
but, sad is that there's a principle talk ):
well, me, yiling, wanxin & meiyi,
can play with our make up kit,
during our 2 hours lunch time =DD

baby, i'll stay by you no matter what..
just like you've asked me to trust you (:
forever, promised, just only US!
i love you, my dearest bastard!
i will, hh, kk, tt, ll, bb, ff with you (:
forever & ever & ever, mwarks (:

I AM STILL IN SCHOOL ):

2009-04-16T15:34:00.000+08:00

EFC LESSON ROCKS!!!
i love ms madeline phua~

to wanxin :
too bad, i've uploaded it (:
i'll upload new photos of us~

bla bla bla..
nothing better to post about,
go home then update again (:

baby, take good care of yourself!

HYPER at first, EMO in the end!

2009-04-15T21:36:00.000+08:00

sadded, yiling didn't come today ):

ME & MEIYI (:

went to lobster place to eat lunch..
the food there was okay?!
meiyi tears drop down,
because the chicken was too spicy for her..

dinner went to eat vegetarian western (:

SHE'S WANXIN (:

ms berlyn tan, my FTY teacher..

ms madeline phua, my EFC teacher..

both very interesting =DD

saw the makeup kit.. - woah!

damn nice, the bag is in black,

the brushes & makeup, so fantastic!

i am happily waiting for friday,

1st. getting makeup kit!

2nd. going find my bastard!

end up, ms eng said that,

friday's principle talk is compulsory,

it's from 3 pm - 4.30 pm,

i so damn pissed off & disappointted, you know?!

sorry baby, i can't accompany you ):

i'll make it up for you A.S.A.P (:

it's a promise from me, okays?!

MWARKS, i love you so so much!!!

I'M IN COLLEAGE EAST!

2009-04-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

1st day of school, i am SHY!
but, took the initiative to make new friends..
1st person i met was beatrice... ...
later is yiling & meiyi, then i keep talking,
but meiyi was damn shy, typical emo kid!
in library, i was so boring, yet,
i said it out loud, " very boring! ",
then a girl turn and look at me, laughing,
that's how i got to know her, wanxin!

2nd day of school, i am HYPER!
i met wanxin & yiling in cafe 1 before reporting..
i damn talkative you know!
guess what?!
wanxin, yiling & meiyi was talkative today (:
they are my newest ~~LESBIANS~~!!!

me & meiyi (:
yiling & me (:
forgot her name already, but find her cute,
so i took photo with her, but, don't balme me,
because she is not my classmate!
so, it's normal to forget her name (:

saw someone i don't wish to meet in sports hall,
don't need say, you guys know who am i refering..
i am good at pretending right?! - i know~

keep joking the whole day, creating laughters,
even miss eng also cannot stand my unseriousness,
everyone was laughing like mad with my kuku remarks..
HAHAHA! HAHAHA! HAHAHA!

bullied by my bastard, go find him,
still requested me to buy drink for him!
nevermind, i am willing to do so (:
i love you, but ... ... ... ... ... ...
well, just can't really post whatever i want,
because i've got restricted by MR. BASTARD!

trust you, trust you not?!
she's so damn "pretty"!
love me, love me not?!
how much can you sacrifice for me?!

random, random, random..

2009-04-12T21:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday, weizhi came find me, stay overnight too!
i am not boring at all (:

cam-whoring in coffee shop... ...

started cam-whoring after we went smoking at void deck far from coffee shop..

don't jealous okays! we're ~~lesbains~~ also, she's my bitch too!

stupid poses all the way, laughters & craps =DD

actually, weizhi wanted to take the both of us in this posture,

but, her shaky hands made her phone snap only me~

cam-whoring in my room... ...
does she look like a prevertic person?! - obviously!

cam-whoring in mrt station... ...

accompany her go jurong~

this is snapped by weizhi, end up, she shot my breast?! -LOLS!

i am disappointed in my bastard's attitude..

haiz... ...
went to find daniel awhile, then, off i go..
no mood, no appetite, no smiles... ...
let daniel accompany me till ang mo kio mrt station,
i said that i'll go home alone, but, what i did?!
i walked home from there~

used 1 hour 15 mins to walk..
a cruel way to torture myself right?!
let me tell you what i did... ...
i am wearing a shoe that gives me blisters,
but, i don't care & let it blist even more..
since, i can't behave like i did in the past,
my bitches don't allow me to cut myself,
i also quitted the habit of venting on others,
so, i used this method! ( it seriously works )
well, my feet pain like hell, but, ENDURE!!!
because, the pain can help relieve my mood swings (:
i know that i am going to regret i torture myself this way,
because, it's going to be a fresh day in a fresh mood,
yet, i still having blisters that i caused purposely!!!

FUCKERS!!! - pissed off~

2009-04-11T01:52:00.000+08:00

alright, remember the post on 20th february?!
well, i'm pissed off because of that!!!!!
pcb, ccb, fucking asshole slut!

to my bitch :
i found out who is that TRICIA..
here's her link, she've got 2 blogs..
http://tsurizulife1992.blogspot.com/
http://triz-lone.xanga.com/weblog
indeed, she's so fucking "pretty"!
her "hotty-sexy" body induces people to fuck her!
i seriously felt like vomiting suddenly... ...
take a look, you'll understand why am i sure,
that she's that fucking shameless, slutty dog!
i don't even know her, yet, she got my link!!!

read her post on 2nd april,
that makes me call her a SLUT!

i just got to find out who is that FELICIA,
then, i shall handle them all together..
act till they're so fucking angelic,
i thought they'll be better looking than me,
yet, YUCK, still dare critize me... ...

i seriously should go find out who's the guy,
that fucked her when she's drunk that day,
thank him sincerly & tell him that his taste suck!

do you remember that,
she still says that you're her bestfriend?!
fuck her off okays, all rubbish!
she's a friend of HENRY, instead!

critize me, you & yongseng together,
now is my turn to critize her... ...

ccb, no difference from that hamburger,
but, at least hamburger look sweeter... ...
still dare come critize about us!!!!!

my day was fantastic at first,
but, after 10pm, it suck!!!!!
1 fucking guy, "panda", seriously irritate me!
still let me found out about that SLUT!
nevermind, i can vent all my anger,
on this 2 fucking irritating people!!!
ARGHS!!!

can't get so pissed,
or else got wrinkles..
not worth it, for them..

YAWNS..

2009-04-10T15:21:00.000+08:00

slept so early, i'm tired..
i'm boring when waiting for your reply,
and, when i'm boring, i'll always think alot..
happy or sad, all linked together... ...
luckily, when waiting got people accompany me,
thanks aloysius, mingsiang & daniel (:
at least, i've ways to forget about it~

sort of surprised when i realised that,
liting & zijie's started together on the 17th too!
wanted to console michelle,
not to be too sad, but, give up... ...
because, she's a stubborn girl..
so, i just listen whatever stories in it,
best way is, not to give any comments..
i just don't want her to cry alone..
if i'm beside her, maybe i'll say alot,
but, we're just talking on phone & msn,
i am unable to console her,
so, tried not to make her cry again... ...
i'm a good bitch, yea?! - LOLS!

so many people asked me to invite them,
because i privated my blog, but,
sorry bitches & bastards,
your wishes are not granted!!!
only 1 female & 2 males are allowed in..
which is peiying, yongseng & darren... ...
well, maybe after a few more days,
i will public my blog back again... ...

the weather's so bad today,
makes my mood drop ):

i miss you baby~
when can i hug you to sleep in such cosy day?!
in a cosy way, with loads of loves & kisses... ...
when can i be filled with laughters again?!
in a satisfied way, laugh & smile from heart... ...
when will you kiss me gently again?!
with your gentle eyes, comforting me... ...
am i asking too much from you?!?!?!
i miss the way you feed me
i miss the way you hug me from behind
i miss the way you surprised me
i miss the way you kissed me suddenly
i miss the way you covered me with warmth
i miss the way you teased me in every ways
i miss the way you holding my hands tightly
i miss the way you acting like a small kid
i miss the way you asked me to kiss you
i miss the way you do your everything... ...
i really miss everything alot~

缘分究竟是跨越多少障碍
才把你送过来
送到我的身边来疼爱

what the fuck am i thinking?!

2009-04-10T03:43:00.000+08:00

supossingly to be damn happy about the outcome..
but,
why do i feel bad?!
why am i feeling miserable?!
KOH JIAWEN!!! - stop it!

telling myself that everythings' over,
yet, i am crying like fuck!!!
everything is so damn unrealistic..
am i really glad that he's back?!
then, why am i so scared?!
i am just pure USELESS!!!

baby,
tell me why am i feeling this way ):
i'm afraid that you'll lie/cheat on me,
am i thinking too much?!
i tried very hard to stop myself from thinking,
but, i just can't stop myself from it ):
HHHEEELLLPPP!!!

where's the confident jiawen used-to-be?!
maybe just afraid that you'll leave me, again..
can't be too happy/excited too early..
i might fall even deeper into the love..

you told me before whenever,
we quarreling or want to break,
you always say,
promises are meant to be break..
so, i dare not ask you promise, anymore~
because once you promised,
i'll be like an idiot, treating it seriously..
yet, get slammed by your words hard..

sad to say, but, have to,
i love you even more than before,
but, i don't trust you as much... ...

maybe is your actions that,
made me scared & afraid of you..
alot of questions coming to me,
but, i dare not ask you... ...

i know, i am silly, stupid & idiotic!
let time heal my wound alright?!

if you want to hurt me again,
warn me first, before you did..
at least let me get prepared that,
our patching up won't last long... ...
but if you really love me,
don't let me cry anymore,
i'm more than enough tired of it... ...

let me tell you why am i feeling insecure..

i am not sure whether,
is it true that you've no feelings for her..

i feel that, my coming back,
is happening at the wrong time..

i am so guilty, you know?!

at 1st,
i am so scared that i'll lose you to her,
yet, now,
i've got you back, i feel guilty... ...

i am such a useless bitch... ... ... ...

i am afraid of losing you,
yet,
i wanted you so badly..
i'm so fucking confused ):

i love you more than you could imagine..

终于雨过天晴了！(:

2009-04-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

许佳雯会从此笑着渡过每一天！
好了，我不会拿爱情做比较，
因为，没有人会比我更爱你，
也没有人会比你更加疼惜我，对吗？！

我还真的被你吓到了，没想到，
你还会记得我们，所有的第一次 (:
这次，我真的相信，你是真的爱我。。

真爱，真的须要面对考验，
我们才能变的更坚强，更懂的珍惜与爱对方。。

许佳雯，很爱，很爱， MR. BASTARD！
MR. BASTARD，你有多爱许佳雯呢？！

no more unwanted quarrels,
no more stubborn attitudes..
like we've promised?!
will we love each other more than before?!
for me, obviously YES !
treat me better alright?!
i will love you, forever!!!
don't ever lie/cheat on me (:
MWARKS ~

why am i still feeling sad?!

2009-04-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

我不知道你说的那一句真，那一句假。。
或许我真的为难你了，但是，
有哪个女人愿意和别人分享她的爱人呢？！

回到我的爱情世界里，感觉那么的不实际。。
我好像一个阶入别人生活里的第三者。。
这种感觉，很不好受，你知道吗？！
原本属于我的他，竟然沦落到，
需要和别人挣夺一个他的地步。。
这样，还不够悲惨吗？！
我好害怕，怕，要是他真的离开她，
过后，他抱我，亲我时，脑海里，
会不会在想着她？！
这样的感情，我宁愿放开手。。
爱一个人，应该是甜甜的，
为什么，我非酸甜苦辣都尝津不可？！

i should be happy since you're back,
but, why do i feel everything so unrealistic?!

how much do you really love me?!
choose yourself,
who you really want the most..
if it's her, i'll give my blessings..

i don't know why am i thinking this way,
but, i really felt so insecure... ...

ever since that day,
i'm back to the jiawen..
who'll cry everyday.. - HELP!

i'm so scared that she've already,
taken away part of my share,
which is actually in your heart..
am i thinking too much?!

will you lie to me about her?!
will you still love me whole-heartedly?!
will you?! will you?! will you?!

i felt like hugging you now,
cry & pour everything out,
then let everything past... ...

i'm so afraid to lose you again,
do you know that?!
but, i also don't want to share!
can you step into my shoe,
think more for me,
understand how i feel?!

there's so many questions in my mind,
i don't dare to say, don't dare to ask..
keeping it all to myself is unbearable..

there's already a wound in me,
now, i have to accept my fate?!
will i be losing you to her?!
will you choose me than her?!
do you have feelings for her?!
all my questions are all with,
an unknown answer... ...

i know that crying's no use,
but, why am i still crying?!

i've been thinking of our past,
comparing to now,
is this the type of relationship,
you longed & wanted?!
if yes, let me go, please..

i'm willing to care & love you more,
i'm willing to wait no matter what..
but, i seriously can't bring myself,
to share you with her... ...

i'm so scared, you know?!
because, the longer,
you & her together,
the chance for falling,
is even higher..

who knows?!
maybe she might even,
take over my position..

i once said that,
i want to be your first & last..
but, it seems like,
i can only be your first... ...

you're afraid of hurting her,
so, must well, choose,
to hurt me instead (:

up to you... ...

who you love more,
then choose who... ...
i'm ready for defeat..

i don't want your lips,
if you & her kissed before..
or rather,
i don't want to,
______ with,
someone who don't,
love me whole-heartedly..

i shouldn't have pinned hopes..

2009-04-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

i should not pin so much hope on him..
he's gone missing in action ( MIA )..
what for i care so much?!
you've got your girl to dote on you..
still say whatever bullshit to me ):

maybe my bitches are right,
you should have fallen for her already..
or else,
prove to me that my bitches are wrong!

daddy taught me how to read the stakes,
telling me how to calculate... ...
and, guess what?!
the stocks are all dropping!
daddy lost around $450 000!!!
i was shocked, but,
he actually tell me nevermind!
if the $$ is mine,
i should heart pain like hell!

alrights,
i'm having a terrible backache,
the whole day,
shoulder & tights, unbearable..
due to _ ____ ___ ____ ___!
serve me right! - will you care?!

i'm just your toy, your doll..
you need it, you use it..
you don't need it, you dump it..
am i right?!
this is what everyone's telling me,
that makes me feel so insecure..
where's the warmth & secure,
i used to have & own so much?!

KOH JIAWEN IS BREAKING DOWN..
bitches & bastards,
don't care about me,
let me cry all i want..
i'm seriously confused,
i don't even know what i want,
the only thing i'm clear about is,
I WANTED HIM BY MY SIDE BADLY!!!
when will this day come?!

instead of feeling happy like before,
i felt sense of guilty,
everyone is comforting me that,
it's not the way i am thinking,
but, i just feel it this way..
i can't tolerate, sharing my baby..
do you understand?!
if i'm not important to you,
you can just ignore everything..

i'm starting to miss you now ):

i wish that you belonged to me! - too bad

2009-04-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

有时候，一个人的思想会变，不是因为她想通了，
而是因为她一直都不敢面对，现在，她终于看开了！
她从来就没想过要放弃他和她的爱情故事。。。
或许她回来的不是时间吧！他都已经和另个她在一起了。。。

爱一个人，就一定要包容他的一切吗？！
那么，他有没有包容过我的所有一切？！
为什么，我的爱情路须要那么坎坷？！
爱对方，为什么不能在一起？！
他真的不爱她吗？！还是，他只是在敷衍我？！
就算我说的太直接，我也要说。。。
眼看着一个原本属于你的他和她在一起，你会好受吗？！
我等，可是，要我等多久？！
一年？！两年？！十年？！
要是你们很幸福，须要我等到你们结婚吗？！
还是，继续等到你们会离婚？！
你这样的处里方式，对我公平吗？！
你有没有试着了解我内心的感受？！
我爱你，但是，我的忍耐有限！

我以经学会了，
是我的，就是我的，
不是我的，勉强也没用。。。
我不想再受伤了！你明白吗？！

如果，你是真的爱我，就证明给我看，
答应过我的事，就要做到，
否则，我应该会选择放弃了吧？！
这样子，应该不会让你为难吧？！

whenever i cry, there's always people there for me..
thanks peiying, weizhi, ramesh, michelle... ...
well, you guys are superb, you know why?!
because, all your critizings make me laugh..
i seriously felt better now, no worrys! (:

alright, i'm stupid, naive & idiotic... ...
but, i seriously can't help it... ...
i've tried my very best to hide my feelings,
but, whatever i did, doesn't seem to help much..

i should be happy, but, why am i crying?!
maybe, he really meant what he said, who knows?!

to MR. BASTARD :
if you're afraid that someone might read this post,
want to confront me, save it to yourself... ...
because, it'll only shows that,
you concern about her feelings more than mine..
if you think that i'm unreasonable,
let's put a stop to everything,
i shall just treat as nothing happened!

i'm just saying,
but if you really want to do it this way,
i will grant the wish for you (:
i love you~

I AM LOST!!! - confused

2009-04-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

don't really know what should i post about..
i don't think i have the right to say whatever..
i'm happy, glad, satisfied..
but,
in the main time,
i'm also sad & confused... ...
you should know why is that so..
i don't like this feeling ):

alright, crying also won't help,
so, must well, stop myself from it..

to my bitch :
don't scold me, okays?!
i know, i'm silly & stupid..
you know my character well (:

will anyone teach me,
on whether how should i handle..
i'm seriously ~~hurt~~ confused!

leave all the feelings to myself,
as, i've promised, not to blog out..

yup, i'm wasting $$$!
few weeks ago i just went for extension,
now, i trimmed my hair short... ...

but, it's out of no choice, okays!
miss eng will be nagging at me,
for not cutting my fringe!!!
i don't want to get lectured,
before i step into the class..
i'm a good student (: - lols!

SORRY AARON~
i didn't bomb you in purpose!

how i ~~hope~~ want you to be mine..
belonging to only JIAWEN/JINGWEN..
instead of another person... ...
will it happen?!

i finally realise,
how much it hurts,
when you actually try,
convincing yourself that,
IT'S ALRIGHT - when it's not!

jiawen's useless..
can't even let someone,
she wants the most,
to be only her's..
one & only... ...

where's the promise you once made?!
do you mean what you say?!
do you really love me, miss me?!
i hope so,
i don't wish to get hurt again..
seriously, i can't accept the fact ):
i love you baby, i mean it... ...

100 questions! ( i'm bored )

2009-04-05T15:49:00.000+08:00

INTRO;

Real name
jingwen, jiawen?!

Nickname(s)
too much to list out~

Male or female
obviously, female!

Primary School
rulang primary school..

Secondary School
yuan ching secondary school..

Hair color
black & dark brown?!

Tall or short
short?! i'm 155cm (:

Loud or Quiet
it depends!

Phone or Camera
both!

Health freak
nope, but, diet freak!

Drink or Smoke?
both! - bad, i know~

Do you have a crush on someone?
nope, but, LOVES someone :p

Piercings
ears only..

Tattoos
none currently..

Long or short hair
obviously, it's not short!

Shorts or skirts
it depends..

Boy or girl
i'm a girl, of course!

HAVE YOU EVER;

Been in an airplane
yup..

Been in a relationship
yup..

Been in a car accident
not yet..

Been in a fist fight
no?!

FIRSTS;

First piercing
ears~

First best friend
joanne?!

First award
leadership?!

First crush
ivan?! alvin?! whichever~

First kiss
in train..

First vacation
4 years old, united kingdom :p

LASTS;

Last person you talked to
mummy!

Last person you Msg
MR. AOENGG & kane..

Last person(s) you watched a movie with
forgotten xp

Last food you ate
fried noodles..

Last movie you watched
coming soon?! sex drive?! who cares~

Last song you listened to
never be replaced (:

Last thing you bought
nutri soy!

Last person you hugged
naas?! weizhi?! not sure~

LOVES;

Food
too much to list out!

Drinks
winter melon tea, carrot juice & papaya milk..

Clothing
as long as i'm comfort with it on (:

Books
magazines & non-fiction storybooks..

Songs
too much to list out!

Flower
lavender..

Colours
black, white, violet, baby pink & sky blue..

Movies
i'm addicted to dramas only!

Phrase
fuck you, go & die!

Subjects
whatever i study in school..

IN 2008, I;
[] Kissed in the snow
[] Celebrated Halloween
[x] Had your heart broken
[x] Went over the minutes on your cell phone
[x] Someone questioned your sexual orientation
[] Came out of the closet
[x] Done something you've regretted
[x] Broke a promise
[x] Hid a secret
[x] Pretended to be happy
[x] Met someone who changed your life
[x] Pretended to be sick
[] Left the country
[x] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] Cried over the silliest thing
[] Ran a mile
[x] Went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[] Stay single the whole year

CURRENTLY;

Eating
nothing..

Drinking
nothing..

Touching
my laptop & handphone..

Listening to
你不属于我了 by 杨丞琳

Plans for tomorrow
go MR.AOENGG house, take my things..

Waiting for
pictures to upload..

YOUR FUTURE;

Want kids?
can i still give birth?!

Want to get married?
obviously, yes!

Careers in mind
beautician/ beauty consultant..

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GUY;

Lips or eyes
lips xp

Shorter or taller?
obviously taller!

Romantic or spontaneous
romantic will do, i don't go for $$!

Nice stomach or nice arms
both?! - i'm greedy~

Sensitive or loud
both, during the correct time..

Hook-up or relationship
hook-up, unless he's serious..

Trouble-maker or hesitant
obviously none! i hate it~

HAVE YOU EVER;

Lost glasses/contacts
none..

Ran away from Home
nope..

Hold a gun/knife for self defense
nope..

Killed somebody
nope..

Broken someone's heart
yup..

Been arrested
nope..

Cried when someone died
obviously yes!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN;

Yourself
yeah, of course!

Miracles
yup (:

Love at first sight
nope..

Heaven
nope..

Santa Claus
nope..

Sex on the first date
no way!

Kiss on the first date
maybe?! blehs xp

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY;

Is there one person you want to be with right now? Name?
obviously yes, but don't know he wants or not.. MR. AOENGG!

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
not really, my life story is complicated ):

Do you believe in God?
nope..

This is the 100th and last
yeah! finally!

yesterday & today~

2009-04-04T18:31:00.000+08:00

cousins came over to play...
joked with my uncle,
overall, laughters surrounded!!!
me, aunty & alicia
me & darren

me & amanda

yesterday went to college east, again..

for interview & medical checkup..

found out that, people studying,

beauty therapy, have to be ~~rich~~!

because,

payment for the checkup, $43.20!

have to buy own toolbox, $84!

1 textbook & notes, $60!

there's still alot to go... ...

miss eng said, altogther $400+,

excluding school fees.. - woah!

the nurse can't aim properly,

poked my left hand - no blood!

poked my right hand - twice!

i pity myself~ pain okays!

changed for x-ray,

the robe i wear,

so cute!!!

congratulations to myself!

i'm into the course,

but, have to wait,

if medical fail... ... ... ...

( touch wood~ )

YEAH! i've grown taller (:
YEAH! i've lost 8kgs (:
someone reading this would be jealous..
me too, won't state out, who are you,
just to tell you that, pinching & taking photos,
with asfar is not a big big deal! - hmph!
i'll have my chance soon (:
HAHAHA~

i got MR.LEINAD..
19, single, handsome & cute!
studying in ___ polytechnic..
jealous le bahs?! -blehs :p